i've been ruminating on an interaction i had the other day where someone greeted me as "hey lil guy!" in a way that.... was not prompted by me being cutesy on purpose; i was being my normal casual self. and in that moment (and now) it gave me a big ol twinge of discomfort and dysphoria. i can be pretty sensitive about feeling like i'm "being taken seriously," especially as a man, so that's not out of character for me. but it rocketed me out of my fun-online-wyrmsona to my Regular Daily Self, like "Hello, excuse me. I didn't like that. Please don't refer to me diminutively if I haven't 'prompted you' through my behaviour." idk why i've been more and more touchy about that lately. probably connected to my aversion to being called a "boy" outside of affectionate terms. like. Hello, I am an adult. Please show me you respect me as one.
to be so so clear, i am not angry upset or anything, no hard feelings, and i have no expectation of people to read my mind about what is/isn't suited to me in the moment. i'm just musing about my own reaction.
