do I have an avoidance problem? yes
am I gonna do anything about it?
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uhhhh
I mean if I just don’t think about it it’ll be fine—
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do I have an avoidance problem? yes
am I gonna do anything about it?
….
uhhhh
I mean if I just don’t think about it it’ll be fine—
I have literally unlearned how to talk to people it’s not even funny anymore
The more you try to avoid suffering, the more you suffer, because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you, in proportion to your fear of being hurt. The one who does most to avoid suffering is, in the end, the one who suffers most.
Thomas Merton
wow i'd love the ability to just do my fucking work
i'm such a piece of shit lol! was supposed to have an interview today but i emailed her less than 3 hours ahead and told her i was too sick to come in........ why did i do that.... i don't even kno