#i create myself

[collaged-chapters]

About me and the why

Hi! My ex told me I didn’t have a purpose and that I didn’t have any idea of what to do with my life, that he needed someone who already got that figured out (which is partially true, I do have a purpose but I’m discovering what to do with my life, and contrary to what he thinks, I find that wonderful, I get to create myself, he gets to travel a path that’s already decided for him, the one he’s too scare to leave for other passions). He also said that he didn’t see me as an equal and considered himself superior in some aspects, and with the “subtle” foreshadowing at the beginning about how that went in our relationship, I’ve decided to prove him wrong.

So now I have this sense of anger about it and find a tumblr post saying you need to start doing shit out of spite, using both (the anger and the spite) to fuel you, I’ve decided to do that, fuel myself to create the things that I want for my life and show him that being lost, searching for a path and being comfortable with the uncertainty of discovery is not inferior. 🗡️

So here I am, maybe on my artsy villain arc?

I started to do digital collages for my reading journal and I want to show them, they represent how I imagine those worlds, the vibes, hope you find them cute 🥰

A little more about me:

She/her

27 almost 28 years old, still amazingly lost

Virgo sun babe + Scorpio moon ♥️ and I love it.

I have 2 cats, one of them is using me as a bed as I write and you read. Thank you for reading all this btw 🥹 I’m not sure if this is gonna find someone but still.

English is not my first language.

Im obsessed with this song right now, has me in a chokehold goddam

I graduated from college with an art degree and I’m learning anatomy to start drawing the characters of the books I read, I’ve always love anime and dreamt about being a mangaka when I was a smol human being, learning to draw people is my try to accomplish that smol human’s dream right now.

I remember too many memes for that to be okay 😖 and get hyper fixated too easily so you might lose me for a week to some random shit.

That’s all for today, if you found this in the vast world of tumblr and got to the end of it 😳 Ty for giving me that precious time of yours, hope it was worth it for you and maybe you can be my companion to show him that being in the process of becoming someone is beautiful too, that sharing the way is nicer and that you don’t need to be finished to be worthy.

Hope the foam on your latte never disappears and your coffee or tea stays warm babe.

[advena-perditus]

I am the bad wolf, I create myself

Iconic scene and dialog, if u ask me

[witch-lock]

not to be That Guy and project onto a sherlock quote but. truly what is a mother? “I made me.”

[happy-lil-sisyphus-blog]

I almost remember it. The time when I still cared enough to be destroyed.

[entertainmentnerdly]

"I'm the bad wolf, I create myself" 2 years ago via /r/doctorwho https://ift.tt/30OLpMa

[bloodybrilliant-mnk]

I am the Bad Wolf; I Create Myself

Can we just talk for a second about how fucking iconic these words are? I'm not the biggest Rose Tyler fan, especially not in series 2 and beyond where it seemed like all she did was lust after 10. But that's not my point right now, so we'll come back to that later.

"I create myself" is such a perfect line for that moment. Because that's what Rose Tyler did. She created herself in every sense of the phrase. She didn't like what her life was on Earth, and so when she was given the chance to do more with it, she did. She became Rose Tyler, Defender of Earth. Rose Tyler, the girl who showed compassion to a Dalek. Rose Tyler, the girl who saved the Doctor.

And that's what Rose was supposed to be, I think. An inspiration for girls who weren't given much in life. A reminder that you can be more, do more - if you only have the strength of will to go after it. And of course, you can never back down.

You take a stand. You do what's right, even when everyone else just runs away - I can't quote the whole speech, sorry, but you know what I mean.

[happy-lil-sisyphus-blog]

A Concept:

It's the end of your time. Maybe you are old and tired from a well lived life. Maybe you are young and reluctant to take the Reaper's hand. Or a million variations thereof. At first you are frightened, you have never faced something so unknown, so unknowable. Your heart stops, and time slows. You somehow know the feeling starts within your body, but it feels deeper than that. You know what falling asleep feels like, but this doesn't resemble that at all. This isn't unconsciousness, this is your consciousness leaving your body. Release, complete release; beautiful and devastating. To the world of the living, it is a fraction of a moment. To you, time breaks down. Fleeting and eternity are synonyms. You can only relate the feeling to brief experiences. Like a child pulling off a tightly wound rubber band from their finger. Like pulling a sliver from your skin. Like removing your tight, restrictive and warm clothing after a long day, and feeling the cool open air on your nude skin. Release. It feels like release, at a cellular level. Death comes upon you, calmly and slowly, releasing you from the mortality and exhaustion of your body. What comes after doesn't matter, because your final moments release you from being small, restricted, singular. You are now, at last, the size of the Universe.