#i fucking exploded

[carb0n-m0n0xide]

CHAT HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE

MY MOTHER GOT A BUTTLOAD OF FRUIT AHHDUDHDVDHDIEJD

SORRY I REALLY LIKE FRUIT EHHDHEHEHH

[what-up-dudesss]

"YOUR WIENER'S BUILT LIKE A TICTAC!"

-Karl Jacobs 2021

[joshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh]

Top 10 Shows I Watched For The First Time Over My Summer Holidays

I only watched 10 new shows over my holidays apparently, but since today’s my last day I thought I’d rank them. Didn’t count currently airing shows or any I didn’t finish.

10. Your lie in April

Man fuck this garbage pile of shit piece of fucking trash show.

9. Elfen Lied

Just really uninteresting with boring characters, a boring narrative, amateur voice acting, a bland art style, almost no thematic depth, and overbearing gore and tits.

8. Day Break Illusion

Not very good in like, any way, but it had some fight scenes I thought looked kinda cool and some seiyuus I like.

7. Yuki Yuna is a Hero

Okay idea held back by uninteresting characters and story, as well as said story relying way too hard on a world that's horrendously built and impossible to care for.

6. Tamako Market

Really really cute and has a movie I quite liked, but lacks focus, has too many side characters that are completely forgettable, and tries to force a really bad plot in the last few episodes for no reason

5. Magical Girl Raising Project

Honestly not that good but I love the character designs and the visuals and the soundtrack and some other stuff that's pretty cool so overall I did actually enjoy this show in spite of its issues.

4. Hinamatsuri

Extremely good comedy with some endearing characters and a truly beautiful story in the form of Anzu's arc, held back by poorly told and horribly concluded dramatic moments in the later half.

3. Comic Girls

hrrnnnggggghhh cute lesbians drawing manga.

2. Hibike Euphonium

Incredibly well written drama with some incredibly good and developed characters that are believable and loveable, though season 2 has some developments I wasn't fond of.

1. Flip Flappers

I like just posted my review man go read that, this show is so fucking fun and I love it.

[juliet-romano]

I can’t believe PB pulled a threesome on us

[the-heart-alchemist]

WHEN WEISS NUZZLED HER FACE INTO YANG’S NECK AND HAIR I D I E D

[nowhesnothereidkwhereiwannago]

IVE FOUND ONE(1) NIGHT OWL 1993 FIC AND I AM READING THE SHIT OUT OF IT RIGHT NOW

[venln]

I just lost it on my mom

[hiimthetank]

There's a storm brewing

I saw it happen again last night. I turned into that mindless animal again. Mir couldn't stop it, and neither could I. It is what I fear most. Years of detachment from my emotions and a conjuring of a sadistic defense mechanism has bred a certain part of me into a goddamn animal. Wild eyed and impulse driven. I was lucky it was a dream, but goddamn if I didn't feel all of it. My face burning and stinging from tears and my body aching from the sheer amount of effort it was taking to keep going. My head throbbing from the thoughts and my heart beating out of my fucking chest to keep up with my desire. I turned into a fucking monster. A mindless thing neither me nor Mir. A beast made of pure psychological tendency. A massive defense mechanism for stress. Get rid of it all. Feel nothing. Be happy. Someone will get hurt. 

My stomach is still turning and my heart isn't beating correctly. I can think straight. I'm everywhere, strewn out and stretched thin. Sooner or later I'm going to snap. I can't internalize my feelings because it's going to eat me alive, and I can't externalize because I feel like I'm going to hurt someone or get myself into more shit than I've already been in. I just need a healthy outlet, Something. Anything. I need it available, Constant. I neeed it. Mir doesn't know what to do, I don't know what to do. I'm going to shut down. Seclude myself. Fall into depression. Get angry. Snap. Boom. Scream shout fucking run pummel goddamn its going to happen i should just bash my face against the wall i wanna see how much blood pours from my head before i lose conciousness i want it gone i want them i dont want them hurt i dont know my chest is going to explode im almost thereits sohardto breath im a fucking mess everyones goingto worry i need to think i need to bash my brains out i need to feel something other than this i need a fucking outlet i need to electrify myself i need to burn i need to stop my bones from aching i need to stop imaginging eating people i need something i need it fucking hell im going insane again i need to lay down i need s atender voice and a warm embrace i need to look someone in the eyes and shout i need to fight i need to feel bones brak and meat pack and eyes swell shut and teetch loosen i need to fucking eat something besides the inseide of my fucking lip i need to calm down i need to throw myself off a aaaa goddamn building i need to feel an impact i need a coma so i dont hurt anyone i need to stop people from worrying i need to stop feeling so self entitled that i disregard others feeelings i need to stop drawing attention i need to fill my lungs with water i need to get under control i need to stop this post i need to let people know whats wrong i need to stop i need to stop everything its getting out of hand im going crazy goddammit what is happening i cant stop im sitting here with a fucking straight face just emptying my fucking soul and it wont stop its getting worse this was a bad idea i need it out take my soul i dont fucking need it take my heart its causing problems take everything from me im a goddamn mess im fucking broken why dont i beat my head against the wall because im terrified of the hospital i dont want to go back i ll cause a scene ill break something ill fight the nurses ill yell get thrown in solitary yell more straight jacket yell more kick scream fight punch kick stab fucking bite their goddamn eyes out because they cant see how much i hurt and how much this isnt wokring how much i feel now how much i need it to stop the medication makes it go away but at what cost im not a fucking person on medication im a goddamn sad sack of shit worthless pile of garbage i can do that again i wont do that again you cant fucking make me I swear to whatevers fucking listening that ill never fucking do that but if i dont ill hurt people theyll worry and worry and ill worry and this will happen again im so godamn diszzy i acant think straight theres so much noise i can t fucking cant stop it needs to stop someone stop it help me stop it i cant do it on my own but im too much for anyone to handle im too much for myself theres two or three people in here and they all want different things it wants to end it all and he got a goddamn fixation thats not healthy and im stuck int he middle of desire for nothing and desire for all a destructive force of nature and a fucking lustful greeed i cant icanticnactincanticanticanticanticant fucking icant cant fucking cant sto p stop tostpo stop tsopgod fucking dmamit why why why why fffffffffffucking shit im going to be sick im doing this to myself i swear im going to rip out my own fucking esophagus if it doesnt stop burning like this i need quiet but i cant be alone with myself this is what fucking happens

okay

okay

i think im okay

i got some of it out 

my head

my fucking head

ohkat 

peopel are here 

i can distract myself

okay

goddamn im taking some fucking ibuprofen

im on fire