I’m still not sure I figured it out, but I think I’m comfortable enough with what I came up with, so here is the announcement. I have decided to come out as:
1) PANROMANTIC: that is the one thing I’m sure about. I definitely have the potential to fall in love with people of all and any gender identities.
2) DEMISEXUAL: still not sure I can always tell the difference between sexual attraction and romantic attraction, still not sure whether I ever want to have sex, but this is good for now. it feels right.
3) NON-BINARY: ooh boy. this is the one I’m still a bit scared of. I’ve been suppressing this part of my identity for a very long time, and I still need to learn how to accept myself.
as for pronouns.. English is easy, I prefer gender neutral terms and they/them pronouns. Hebrew is trickier because it’s a very gendered language, so I’ve decided that I’m going to refer to myself as he/him every once in a while just to break that gendered box, but I don’t care if others continue to refer to me as she/her. Same with Russian, though I don’t use it that much so who cares.
that’s it, just wanted ya’ll to know what’s going on with.. that. hopefully I can live in peace for a while now :)