May 14, 2017
gonna sell a bunch of stuff i own and destroy/get rid of almost everything i’ve kept over the years either recently, from my childhood, or of my art until the only thing i’m left with is just my clothing in one or two boxes
everything i own and that i have in boxes feels like some kind of soul-sucking leech or weight just keeping me down i honestly dont want to own anything anymore i dont want my past to exist
#idk how to describe it but dear lord#the only thing i dont know what to do with is all the freaking school supplies i have like i wanna donate them but where#other than that honestly my childhood/teenage years depress and anger me#it's not even nostalgia i get looking at my stuff it's like a mix of slight nostalgia with anger/sadness/disgust#i need nothing#idk how i feel honestly#kinda lonely too#had a lonely life growing up being passed around to be raised by different ppl or no one at all#this stuff just reminds me of it#makes me feel lonely#idk tbh#too many negative emotions#especially in my art#i wish i could wipe my memory#random post#personal
