#i needed you

[oldsoul71]

The universe knew ✨️

Credit: crownofsparrows

[sageisnotpepesilvia]

dirtgrub, put the bug down!

[yourenumber1]

She’s me. I’m her.

I needed you 💋

[silviethewaternymph]

I Needed You

You just couldn't, could you?

Be there for me like I was for you?

Nights where you couldn't sleep,

Sobbing inconsolable.

I was there.

Collecting each tear,

Whispering sweet nothings and reassurances.

'It'll be OK,' I whispered,

Expecting you to do the same.

To do the same when I needed you to.

To hold me and tell me it was going to be okay.

I needed you,

Whether it be the highs or lows.

I. Needed. You.

And you weren't there.

I was there,

When you were crumbling into pieces.

I gathered you in my arms and put you back together.

I made your cracks close in.

And in turn,

You just watched me crumble.

You were in the room when my walls started to cave in.

Even if it was just miniscule cracks,

I was breaking either way,

And you were there.

Watching.

If not watching,

Healed.

Feeling lighter, from those endless nights.

Healed, from assurances of never leaving your side.

Ironic, isn't it?

In the end, you left my side.

I needed you....

You weren't there.

I needed you,

And goddammit, I still do.

–Silvie

[sunlitpath]

Thank you, lady Aphrodite

[same-skies]

One last text

I wasn’t going to text you, but there was so much left unsaid,

And I can’t sleep with all the thoughts that keep rushing through my head,

And I can’t blame you, because the fault here rests solely on me,

My actions were rash, chaotic, as messy they could possibly be,

It feels like everything has crumbled, nothing is how it seems,

I hate the fact that I can’t call you, the only time I see you is in dreams,

Nowhere feels like home anymore, so I started wandering around,

Wondering if at some point I’d see you, before my feet hit the ground,

And I wonder if you’d look at me the same, if you’d still care,

Or if you’d even recognise me now, after all I changed my hair,

I can’t text you to say goodnight, so I stopped sleeping,

And everything tastes bland now, so I stopped eating,

And I know my eyes don’t shine as brightly anymore,

And my smile no longer lights up a room when I walk in the door,

And I respect the fact that you need space, that you need time,

But I still wish that just for one more night I could pretend you were mine,

One more night, one more hotel, one more meet up in the dark,

Then I could leave this alone, and I won’t just sit and cry in a carpark,

Just one more smile, one more hug, despite the pain I’ll feel,

A proper goodbye, then maybe this would all seem real,

And maybe it’s easier not doing this face to face,

Maybe it’s easier to let go when we’re both in a different place,

But I never got to say goodbye, not really, a text isn’t the same,

And despite how much it’d break me, I’d do anything to hear you say my name,

I just wanted to tell you that I love you, just one time more,

Then we can both walk away from all this, we can finally shut the door,

Or maybe we’ll stay, sit and cry and talk it all out,

That’s wishful thinking though, I caused so much doubt,

I don’t even know why I wrote this, why I sent it in the middle of the night,

But I’ve never been good at walking away without putting up a fight,

And even if you don’t answer, if you don’t text or call,

That’s fine, I get it, but I need you to know that I’m sorry for it all,

And I’d do anything to fix this, to try and make it right,

But I hurt you, and if you don’t wanna talk that’s fine, I’ll just say one last goodnight.

[yourlovelyspace]

I wouldn't have been able to overcome it without you 💝