#silvie writes

[silviethewaternymph]

No clue

What an honour it must be

To be able to look around

Exist without knowing

Grasping the impact you have

Assuming you have none

No resonance

No echo in the vast canyon you are

What an honour it must be to know,

That for one second

One aching moment

You had been observed

Perceived by eyes other than your own

What an honour,

A privilege it must be

To not know

Not care

Not pursue

The hurt

The wreckage

The quiet loss

Oh what a privilege it must've been, my dear

For you,

Oh so phenomenal you

To not want

Not think

Not at all

Of all that you are

– Silvie

[silviethewaternymph]

Something, anything

Give me a pole

Branch to hold onto

Some semblance of existence

Of acknowledgement

Good god give me a rod

So that I may see

May catch a glimpse

Of what's on the other side

Of what is to come

Because I see a road

Muddied and worn

With an end

No hill

No tunnel

Somebody tell me

Grip me by my shoulders

And tell me its all for something

That there is meaning

To this cyclic chaos

That my devotion

That my continuance

Stands for something

Anything

Hold me

Like a mother consoling her child

And whisper sweet nothings

Tell me the acclaim

The fame

Is not worth it

My soul

My life

My tears

Tell me, I will come out of it unmoored

– Silvie

[silviethewaternymph]

In Silence

Sit with me in silence,

For in silence there is peace.

Tell me about your day,

List out your hobbies.

Tell me your secrets,

I, like a vault, will keep them.

Sit with me in silence.

Love me for all that I am,

And I will do so too.

Sit with me in silence,

For in silence, I feel loved.

Do not love me in only silence,

Love me in everything .

The highs, the lows.

The days where the world feels loud.

Love me in silence.

For there are different worlds creeping into my mind,

All I ask of you is to stand with me between them,

And I will do the same for you.

Sit with me in silence.

I don't ask that you tell me you love me every minute,

I ask you indulge me by listening to my ramblings.

For I've never had anyone to listen to them,

And I ask that you do.

Sit with me in silence,

And I promise to sit with you in chaos.

Sit with me in silence, my love,

And I promise to do the same for you.

-Silvie

[silviethewaternymph]

You Just Left.

Is it weird that I still write about you?

It's been almost 2 years since you left,

6 months since we stopped talking,

But who's counting.

I miss you.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't.

But I guess that was the goal wasn't it?

Make me get attached,

make a dramatic exit.

You didn't tell me anything.

Didn't write a letter.

Didn't leave a note.

I woke up and you were gone.

I've been spiralling for months,

recounting every interaction we had.

Searching and scanning for answers in every text,

reading into every gesture,

every twitch.

I comforted you after every break up.

Wiped your tears after every broken promise.

Cleared the skies when you couldn't see the sun.

I've talked you down from ledges more times than I could count,

and in the end, I wasn't worth a single text?

I've berated myself for driving you away.

I've nitpicked every corner of my personality.

Questioned my whole character.

Meanwhile this was your plan.

Make me get attached,

vanish,

ignore.

Maybe I'm reading too deep into this,

portraying myself as a victim.

Fishing for sympathy.

But I don't get it.

Why?

You show up like a breath of fresh air,

give me what I never knew I needed.

And then what? Just disappear?

A year of nonstop chatter to complete silence.

Was our kinship a joke to you?

An inconvenience?

A nuisance you needed out of your life?

Well congratulations,

I'm out of your life.

And it kills me.

- Silvie

[silviethewaternymph]

I Needed You

You just couldn't, could you?

Be there for me like I was for you?

Nights where you couldn't sleep,

Sobbing inconsolable.

I was there.

Collecting each tear,

Whispering sweet nothings and reassurances.

'It'll be OK,' I whispered,

Expecting you to do the same.

To do the same when I needed you to.

To hold me and tell me it was going to be okay.

I needed you,

Whether it be the highs or lows.

I. Needed. You.

And you weren't there.

I was there,

When you were crumbling into pieces.

I gathered you in my arms and put you back together.

I made your cracks close in.

And in turn,

You just watched me crumble.

You were in the room when my walls started to cave in.

Even if it was just miniscule cracks,

I was breaking either way,

And you were there.

Watching.

If not watching,

Healed.

Feeling lighter, from those endless nights.

Healed, from assurances of never leaving your side.

Ironic, isn't it?

In the end, you left my side.

I needed you....

You weren't there.

I needed you,

And goddammit, I still do.

–Silvie

[silviethewaternymph]

The fool's ambition

Oh what fantasies

Such wishful dreams

Reduced to dust

By cowardice?

Incapability?

Or was it simply laziness

Sloth, if we want to guilt

Are my hands simply inept

Powerless to hold the success I so long for

Unable to feel the warmth of pride

Is my mind useless

To bear the knowledge that comes along with it?

Anybody

Somebody

Make me understand

What is the purpose of dreams

If not to achieve them

What is the purpose, if not to supersede them

I am in an empty valley

Begging for some semblance of truth

Help me see into the future

Reassure me with what's to come

Don't leave me to my own devices

Hog tied with no knife

Or am I simply to blind to see

The solution

The decree

We do what we can

When we can

With what we have

Brace for impact if we must

Silently pull the trigger we will

– Silvie

[silviethewaternymph]

Fall of the Fit

Oh how the beauty astounds me

Completely defies barriers

You needn't explanation

Justification

Of how it flies

Boundlessly so

Reaches the skies

The heavens themselves

You needn't care

Any sort of admiration

But oh do you call for it

Ache for it

Starve for it

A dog never fed, best possible explanation

Oh how it comes

Comes and goes

Just as the seasons flow

Ebbing and flowing

Up and down

Oh how it hurt

Terribly so

You see it

Dream it

Do nothing at all

But let it pass you by

Oh how the exhaustion

The utter desperation seeps into the bones

Settling deep

Clawing at the collagen itself

I cannot deny

Id rather die

Oh darling, how it has all come to this

Utter disgrace

– Silvie

[silviethewaternymph]

Unspoken

Unseen, unheard

I think it deeply imperative I impress this upon you

My endless adoration

Flowing eternally as Victoria falls does

Ever present

Unseen, unheard

Move, and i shall too

Melodies echoing in the vast expanse

Our bodies, molding to one another

Learning the rhythms of our movement

An eternal dance

Make me sway, my dear

Unseen, unheard

Your eyes shone in the low light

As if meteors sped toward me

Objects on a mission

Objects out of vision

Unseen, unheard

Let us speak the languages of old

Of new

Of the dirt itself

Let us reside in the bushes

Tell the tales of the creatures

Let us exist

Be for the sake of life

Unseen, unheard

Let darkness envelop us

Let it completely shroud us

For we are light, my dear

The very concept itself

Unseen, unheard

Let the world hear us,

The universe itself

Let it hear every groan

Every sigh

Every grunt

Unseen, unheard, unspoken

– Silvie✨️