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#life #like idk man i feel like it all shifted when peeps from other sm websites showed up here #and half the tumblr veterans left during the 2018 exodus #but the fact that people don't really reblog anything anymore #and even those with tens of thousands of notes on their posts have 10/1 like/reblog ratio AT BEST #is just depressing #and i feel ike there's been a cultural shift too where people need to go through an elaborate checklist to justify reblogging stuff #like is it aesthetically pleasing? is it part of my fandom? is this not rude to reblog (which is??????????)#if someone doesn't want something reblogged they can disable reblogs wdym #gone are the days of people hitting the reblog limit lol #i still remember dash being just alive and brimming like 10 years ago #and constantly finding new cool things outside of my scope that i would then reblog #because yeah! that's how this whole thing works #reblogging keeps things alive reblogging introduces you and your followers to new stuff #just.. reblog for the love of god #i say this as i myself am making a more conscious effort than before to just.. add stuff i like to my queue #i got a bit wrapped up in 'i gotta properly tag and organize!' game and with my adhd brain i'd nope out quickly #but i'm kinda returning back to my olden days where tagging was like.. a perk and not a pre-requisite #and i'm honestly having more fun with it again #because i don't need to think up of a category and a tag for a stupid shitpost lol #no pressure just vibes

falling in love is so fucking stupid. everything on earth is glowing honey-bright. i am easily charmed by small things. i am obsessed even with the shadow formed by her eyelashes. i can't get over the magic of this: that humans can feel something like this.

and yeah in the history of humanity we still can't seem to talk about it enough. because i can tell you about it - about her - and it won't surround the experience. it can never be big enough.

i am feeling something people have maybe always-felt. who knows when the first person fell in love. i am also feeling something that feels new and silly and extreme. like maybe we're the first people to really understand it, truly.

i know the science of it; why her smell is so good to me (something about our compatible genes). oxytocin and whatever hormones. and still it is incredible - i didn't think my body did this kind of thing. i thought it was an invention of romance-book marketing.

things make sense that didn't make sense before. songs about how love is an addiction or possession or insanity. orpheus had to turn around, of course he did, i would turn for her too, just to see. my mom and i watch a rerun of a murder mystery; for the first time i understand the line he did it for love - instead of being trite, it feels like a genuine tragedy.

and of course i am feeling the same way millions of people have maybe felt and know i cannot write enough about it, that it won't quite surrender to poetry. why do i think i'm gonna be the one who can finally communicate this thing that resists definition so ardently. this girl in my kitchen, humming. who walked so casually into my life. this girl pulls the rain down from even a cloudless sky.

what i can say is that i feel something impossible, and stupid. what i can say is that nothing about this is unusual, and yet i am so caught in it that i keep waiting for some terrible evil - something so good surely must come with some kind of retribution.

we get high and watch zombies 4 (it's terrible). the main characters sing a song about love; how theirs feels wild and impossible. the kind of thing i used to think was insipid, bad writing. baby that's us, she says into my ear.

that's us, she says, but with us the true love thing is actually real.

#wlw #spilled ink #warm up #i can't help it like all of my writing is about her these days lol #every single fucking time . every time. she catches me off guard.#there are one million ways she has proven herself to me. and every time i am like #what the FUCK how are we DATING you are INCREDIBLE #it's crazy . it feels insane.#hello is this thing on i want to scream about it #are you telling me THIS is what it's supposed to feel like?????#not a fucking game of ''who likes who less'' ?? just two people utterly obsessed with each other??#girl .... oh man. i feel bad for like 4/5ths of my exes. bc now im like. i.... don't know what i was doing with y'all #particularly the most recent ex OMG lol i literally was like. this is so awkward . bc i NEVER felt like this with her.#(how could i . she was insane and abusive)#and i just wanna say - i really genuinely thought i wasn't ever gonna find love . like genuinely. i had given up #......#and btw if ur ace/aro and ur like '' okay but :(" no worries baby this doesn't have to be romantic love #u can feel this about anything. anyone. hell. finding my best friend also felt like this lol #i was like ''okay wait i understand all the best friends on tv now bc i would genuinely kill for this bitch.#but she NEEDS to be better about remembering to eat''#writing and my relationship to writing sometimes feels like this too :) but i will say that one is like. way more capricious lol #BUT ANYWAY!!!!!!!!#i cannot recommend enough finding the love of your life . whomever/whatever that may be

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Papa McCloud, friends and family

#my art #star fox #james mccloud #peppy hare #pigma dengar #wolf o'donnell #vixy reinard #i have thoughts about james … i know the game depicts him as a very srs leader #and i think that can be true … he has all those traits #but I also cant shake that he might have been a little careless #maybe reckless #i also imagine him being a little goofy #i like when characters can aurafarm and be unserious #i think there’s a symbolic James McCloud post his death and the way he is remembered #and then there’s Jim #Peppy’s best friend who makes rash decisions and doesn’t see the need to worry #man who trusts his instincts maybe to the point of foolishness #pigma thought he was an idiot…#despite everything Wolf is still hung up on him #peppy thinks of him every day of his life #what kind of father/husband was he…#LOTS OF THOUGHTS SORRY FOR RAMBLING IN TAGS ALL THE TIME LMFAOOOOO

old pjeg things i wanted to finish by the time ch2 came out + a sketch compilation... thanks for the memories despite everything

#project edens garden #pjeg #my art #been a pretty sad year so far ngl #man this game couldve been so peak we lost it all in the stupidest way to a couple negligent awful bumfucks #whatever. whatever #i dont think ill ever forget abt these guys #i havent been obsessed with characters to this extent in foreverrr and the memories i have with friends attached to them... sighing #i still remember where i was when certain drawings or stream announcements dropped LOL #i would be at work giggling with one airpod in my ear while damon and the girls were playing dress to impress on the discord and stuff #yeahh

(ISAT ramble / talk about colorism/antiblackness in fandom under the cut. Yada yada)

A black person saying they wished the main character of a beloved game that was intended to be Afro- Caribbean from Guadeloupe actually had any aspect of that in features visibly in the character design (hair, skintone, clothing style, eye shape or nose shape etc) instead of being told retroactively after the fact the specifics of their identity via a post online or a paid artbook is not “misunderstanding the themes of the game”.

Yes I’m aware that people can come in all shades and features regardless of race. That’s a given. But also we do not live in a vacuum and racism/ colorism / featurism/ antiblackness is still a thing that exists and affects the media we look at and can color our biases.

It’s just very very irritating that damn near every single time mixed race rep is represented in stories it’s always the assumption that they have to be half white/look white and very rarely a case of a darker skinned mixed race character getting the focus let alone adoration and love. It’s always a case of the characters getting told to draw / design them lighter and lighter, with features ambiguous and or white so that it gets green lit. That characters need to be “palatable” and stripped of features they naturally would have for the sake of marketability.

That or even when a character in the story does acknowledge their race and their culture or how that would effect their experiences in the story, the fandom at large will do anything in its power to erase it entirely so that it’s back to being relatable to them and them only.

#the bitter ocean talks #the bitter ocean rants #idk man I understand that there was no intended harm or malice behind it.#that the creator just did it based off their own experiences being mixed and white passing #but it still bums me out a little to hear after the fact like (this character was meant to be xyz) and not even committing to it really #because it’s then added on with ‘but you can imagine them as wherever! your turn!’ in a way that other peoples racial identities were not #like while playing the game writing wise I knew he couldn’t be white based on the food he eats (malanga) + the black sand beaches #but it’s like. there are multiple countries with black sand beaches that have malanga as a root crop on a island #and all of those countries are not synonymous with each other and the exact same.#because again there’s a difference between just saying (yeah he’s from an island) versus he’s Afro carribean #vs saying the very specific country that character is meant to be based off of #because again there’s a lot of places in the carribean. and not every person from the carribean is black specifically.#so even if one were to clock ‘yes that character isn’t white’ they still may not think he’s black in any capacity either #like I like Siffrin. they’re a very well written fascinating character #but design wise (to me) it really felt like the creator just stuck with the exact same sketch/ design that was first done with the comics #and just. didn’t change it even when all these new details about the character and where they come from were played in #idk I just think it would’ve been revolutionary to see Siffrin visibly non white and still both in story and out of story get love #but I remember how people treat visibly darker skinned characters/ explicitly black characters in fandom and I’m like. hm. I see how it is #sighs. it’s fine I’m just rambling out loud to myself #I’m just. so tired. tired of seeing the super pointy nose and pale skin and blue eyes and blonde haired siffrins #I’m tired of the assumption that he’s white / the erasure of the character being Black Specifically #idk man maybe I’m slightly cynical about it given how I’ve seen people treat Bonnie and mirabelle and euphrasie #where at best they’re ignored and at worst in fandom they get whitewashed #or villainized and accused of being a bad person or a bad character #compared to characters who are lighter/ white #I’ve seen the way yall treated odile too that shit wasn’t slick!!!!!#reducing the older mixed race asian woman down to the stereotypes that she must be cold and mean #or conversely swinging the opposite direction and must be a mom (yuck) and it’s like ARENT YOU TIRED. IM TIRED #or ignoring how race/culture plays a part in reading characters like the king or Loop #I’m like guys.. guys I’m soooo so so tired please

Something about chartering a private jet

The jester, dragged into the throne room with a blade to her throat. What is the name of the assassin holding the blade, your highness asks?

FUCKING HOCKEY SPACE JAM!?!!?!

P.S. boss I gotta admit I don’t know how this happened. I’ve never even seen Space Jam this makes no fucking sense. Carter Vaughn in my mind does deserve to be the star of Hockey!Space Jam. It’s the only real Justice that CSSC AU Carter will ever get. Also I saw the Obama space jam and just had to make it

Warner Bros. spends years trying to catch Shane Hollander in a net and convince him to do hockey space jam but he simply dodges and weaves them too fast and then eventually they realize Carter Vaughn is the man that they need. he is. A star. Shane, Ilya, and the rest of the ally squad all agree to do a brief cameo if it’s for Vaughny. Donovan gets a minor role and he acts his goddamn heart out.

Everyone figures that Shane Hollander just is too private and serious to ever consent to starring in a sort of goofy kids film but then less than a year after the hockey space jam premiere the Walt Disney Co. asks Shane to be the human cast member for one of the muppet movies and he’s immediately like “it would be the honor of my life.” In the process he accidentally launches a Walt Disney/Warner Bros cold war that plagues Hollywood for years to come. To promote the premiere Ilya does the Graham Norton Show with miss piggy

#sochi outing au #child star crashout summer au #there’s a running gag in the child star crashout summer au that I don’t think I’ve mentioned yet and it’s that Hollywood DESPERATELY wants #Shane Hollander and Rose landry to do the next hangover movie. like honestly please just get drunk and let us follow you two around with a #camera. show us your problem solving skills the next morning. they are icons #rose landry is written into the muppet movie at her request because she wants to do a movie with Shane #all of the metros dream team rebuild + Ilya + the raiders + the ally squad all get cameos #Donovan gets a dramatic death scene for the hockey space jam movie and he’s such a fun goof ball on set and then suddenly he’s correcting #the director about how people look when they’re dying and they all remember oh yeah he’s legally not allowed to talk about some of his old #jobs. Vaughny and Donny walk the red carpet together and they are icons #the muppets are the only franchise in Hollywood that is getting Shane Hollander into any kind of meaningful role in a film #he’s like the Stan Lee of rose landry movies like if she can force that man into a cameo she will but he’ll never agree to more than one #line. but he will act if it’s for the muppets (and if they agree to cram the shooting schedule into the off season. he can’t miss a game.)#he was emotionally attached to the muppets growing up in a way he will never ever admit to #something something the fantasy of finding yourself in a ragtag group of misfits but when you’re together everyone is accepted and loved #and fulfilled and celebrated. he shan’t be inspecting it.#Shane does also do Sesame Street but that’s like a ten minute segment about sportsmanship or exercise or something #but the muppets. Shane Hollander will go all in for the muppets.#he was tiny and exceptional and different in all the wrong ways and he just got bullied off his first ever hockey few #*team #he’d go to games and have the parents from other teams yelling mean things at him and calling him words he didn’t even understand yet and #his coach floated the idea of limiting how much he could score per game so it’d be fair to the other kids and suddenly there’s a second team #that Shane has to leave because he’s somehow too wrong to get to stay #he was miserable and didn’t feel like #he had any friends and felt like that was his fault because there was something about him that was always so wrong and different that no one #ever wanted to stay around him and he didn’t want to quit hockey but sometimes it felt like everyone else wanted him to and he just felt #like there was something about him that people fundamentally couldn’t love #so yeah the idea that one day you’re going to find friends that you fit with and that love you for you and you’ll all go off together to #live and work together forever meant a lot to him #he shan’t be inspecting it. but yes honor of his life to do the muppet movie.

ive been replaying OFF for the first time in over ten years <3

#WIP #my art #sketch #doodle #having fun!!!#i love that its been so long bc i remember nothing and its like playing a new game #also i remember being like 13 playing this game and looking at all the cool fanart #thinking man!! i wish i could draw fanart for this game!!#but i was like my art is not good enough :(#so now replaying it ive realized #hey…. i can actually handle anatomy now #and yes.#this lead to fanart heheh #off game #off (game)

and yeah in the history of humanity we still can't seem to talk about it enough. because i can tell you about it - about her - and it won't surround the experience. it can never be big enough.

that's us, she says, but with us the true love thing is actually real.

#i remember having this game..........man........

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