hi all i haven't really been able to draw properly for a while and it's recently gotten to where i can't really draw at all, it's just my depression i think. i'm not feeling inspiration or motivation to create at all. and it goes so deep, the emptiness? i question if Anything i do has a point to it. if i do draw something it's like i'm forcing it. the brain fog is everywhere and i don't feel like i can emotionally engage with a lot of things. these days i'm just distracting myself and self-medicating to get by. and my life feels like a tense peace that's already so difficult but literally anything could happen to make it way worse. and as always it's like, being inside my head is unbearable (my self-hatred is endless), but it's also terrible outside of my head, and then it's like where do you go? so anyway yeah