i can’t stop thinking this about how Martin never went to uni or trade school. idk y'all but a big part of going to university/college for me was finding out who I was away from my parents and being able to take a step back and look at that relationship with a new set of eyes. And if it's not going to university, there's something that has people branch off and becoming their own person and having better judgements on those relationships. And I'm thinking about how like... Martin never got that?
How he dropped out of school at 17 and has been desperately trying to make ends meet to for his mum. He never got the chance to take a step back or really find out who he was as his own person?
Which I think makes her death in S4 hit him especially hard. Because that's like. A massive part of his identity. Taking care of his mother, despite it all. And now not only does she hate him but she's gone.
I really wish he had that chance to just talk to other people and realize what his mother was doing wasn't normal. To be able to figure out who he was past her when he was younger. And it makes me so sad for him