I watched i saw the tv glow on a discord call with my gf today, and cried for 3 consecutive hours. I cried when i took a shower afterwards, i cried when i sit on my bed, i cried when i pet my dog. And i just cannot fathom how much this movie spoke to me, as it did to many other trans and queer folks.
I mustered the strength this movie gave me to torn off a plate with my dead name on it that it was hanging from my bedrooms door, and i put on some make up and a borrowed dress to make myself feel alive. Feel like myself, like the me that i love, the me that can live, that needs to breathe, that needs to get her heart back to her. I love being me. I love feeling alive, and i won't let myself die grasping for air.
Plus some pictures:3 to proof to myself in the future, that that's me. That's who i strive for succeeding
