Dream Girl -Iceman
Summary: Being Goose' Sister and being there when they announce him dead. Your ex who happens to be a pilot on the same base at that time comforts you about your brother and your past together.
Pairing: Tom "Iceman" Kazansky x reader.
A/n: I think I finally worked through my writer's block and will be having more imagines posted this week. This is a top gun imagine I been working on. I hope to have the next part up in a couple days hope you all enjoy.
What most people didn’t understand you could have the world and lose it so quickly. In one small moment everything could change whether you were ready or not. Being a pilot in the military you learned a lot of things which changed your perspective of life. You learned to fight knowing each day might be your last and you might fly up in the air not knowing you might not come back down. Somehow you ended up in Top Gun with your Goose who was your brother and Maverick who was a best friend to the both of you.
" Make it back please" you embraced your brother in your arms who was laughing at your affection. "If I didn’t know better I would think youd miss me" you smacked the side of his arm before pulling back to look at him "You know how hard it would be to find someone else to do karaoke with" both of you began laughing. "I'll be back before you know it don’t worry about me. Just be prepared to kick ass at karaoke when I get back." you gave your brother a kiss on the cheek before he began to suit up and get in his jet.
"Mav" you quickly raced up to maverick as he was suiting up next to his jet. "be careful and take care of my brother" you saluted your best friend "make sure the two of you make it back" he gave you a smile as he saluted back at you. "I always bring him back don’t I. Don’t worry Bradshaw the three of us together will be back together in no time"
Standing back with the other Aviators you watched the final moments as the boys suited up and got in their jets taking off into the air. You didn’t know about your brother but you got nervous when they both flew into the air knowing their might be a chance they might not come down. The next few moments went by in a blur. The mission going south, commanders yelling commands at the pilots, watching the pilots in the air. To say you were nervous was an understatement. Next thing you knew they were pulling your brothers body from the ocean.
The moment the news came that Maverick and Goose came out. It was like everything changed.
"My dearest Condolences Lieutenant Bradshaw. Your brother was an excellent pilot." The Naval Casualties Officers saluted you and left. Looking around you could see the other pilots staring at you sympathy sat on their faces. Slamming your helmet down on the ground you stormed back into the Top Gun building heading straight into the locker room. Not even bothering to close the door and turned on the shower sitting underneath the cold water as it poured all over you drenching you head to toe. You didn’t care if anyone heard you as you began to scream and cry. Nothing has ever tore you apart as much as hearing about Goose and Maverick. God you hoped Maverick was safe and okay but you just needed a second to grieve for your brother. Being in the navy you knew there might be days you might not come back down most people were okay with that. No one ever prepared you for how hard it truly is. Minutes started to feel like hours. Your voice became hoarse and sore so you just sat there in silence. You sat with your head between your knees the tears streaming down your face mixed in with the water falling down the shower.
"Bradshaw" you heard the door quietly open and heard the steps of someone walking around the locker room. Ignoring the sound of someone walking around the locker room you kept your head between your knees hoping they would go away and leave you be. The water turned off which got your attention. "Its just me sweetheart" you looked up and saw Iceman standing there with a towel for you. He held his hand out towards you "You don’t have to say anything but at least change out your wet clothes" Ignoring his hand you untied your boots snatching the towel from his grip "Im fine Kazansky I don’t need your help" Shoving past Iceman you ran the towel wiping off your face before you began changing out your clothes into some dry ones.
"Im sorry. Everyone loved him. He was a good pilot and a friend" Iceman was sitting on the other side of the lockers. Neither of you were extremely close anymore. He was good friends with your brother but after he broke your heart you were distant friends. "I don’t want your fake ass sympathy" you finished getting ready before walking around to face Iceman "He was my friend y/n. You forget there was a time you were my friend. I promised him I would look out for you and im not going to break that promise."
There was a time you and Iceman were a couple things were different then. Simpler. You were just a girl in a bar and he was just another guy in the bar. The pilot looked at you as if you were his whole world. You felt the world stop around you when he was around you. It was just you and him. It was like you were his half and he was yours. You moved in together and their wasn’t anything in the world the two of you couldn’t handle together.
"I cant fucking believe you" you were quickly trying to shove your belongings into a bag as you were also fighting with Iceman. Lately the two of you havent had time with each other. Either one of you is busy when the other isnt or you both have gotten off late and just havent been in a mood. "How the hell is this on me? Im working to build a future for us. Im doing the best I can so I can give you the future we want." he usually wasn’t the type to cuss at you and lose his temper with you easy. " I want to fucking marry you. I want my life to be with you. Im sorry I missed a couple dates. I love you." Iceman loved you and that was not a secret to anyone but hes never said any of that towards you. "I miss you. I miss my nights with you and our dates with you, Ice. Its like you are never here anymore. Its lonely without you. I cant keep doing this. You are never here I need you back." he slammed his fist on the counter "maybe your future isnt with me" Tears began to slowly swell and fall down your eyes "You don’t mean that." The silence that followed told you everything you needed to know. "I guess your future isnt with me then" that was the end of that. You grabbed your bag and never looked back.
After that you would see Iceman again and would have to work with him. The two of you talked and became civil but that’s all it was civility.
"You broke that promise years ago Ice." your voice was barely above more than a whisper. "I needed you and you were never there. Its like you were a ghost. I loved you. I didn’t care what you couldn’t give me. You were always enough for me. You needed more. I never did." It was true. No matter what happened after the two of you broke up no one ever made you feel like he did. No one was Iceman. "Things change. I don’t need you anymore. I have Maverick and im fine" you went back to grab your bag and empty the things out of Gooses' Locker. "I wouldve gave up everything for you. I never once lied to you. I wanted to marry you and I wanted a life with you. Even after you left I wouldve done anything for you. Hell I still love you. Nothing will ever change that. If you asked I would burn down this whole place if that’s what would make you happy." carefully Iceman started to take a step towards you. "I'm sorry he's gone y/n. ." He was standing close enough you could smell him. For the first time in years he's been close enough that you could feel his warmth against you. You hated how much you missed him.
It was like a reflex you couldn’t help but tightly wrap your arms around him. The comfort of him being here with you was just enough. You known this moment wouldn’t last forever but just in the moment it felt like it would. He did the same in return and began rubbing your back trying to soothe the pain you were in. He knew it wasn’t enough to take all the pain away but it would calm you. The calmness of his humming and his hand rubbing up and down your back was something he always did with you and it never failed to calm you down. Your tears stained the front of his uniform. Both of your hands laid around his neck you held on tighter than your probably shouldve. It was one of those situations if you held on looser than you would be scared he'd be gone. "Im sorry" you muttered your voice came out as a low whisper. It was low enough you almost didn’t think he heard you. "You have no reason to be. You know I will always show up and be here" he tilted your head up so you were looking him in the eyes. He wiped your tears away with his hand. Just like that it felt like nothing changed and that no time has passed for you two. The love has always been there.
"I know they are going to be watching. I cant go out there Ice." you leaned your forehead against his. Normally you wouldn’t care what anyone thought. Even now it wasn’t about caring what people thought about you crying or breaking down but it was dealing with the sympathetic looks and sorry's you would receive from everyone about your brother you just couldn’t deal with it yet. "Take your time okay. We can stay in here until you are ready. Its not about everyone. Its okay to just be in here and grief. Im here with you. Always"
The two of you just spent time talking and he tried his best to help and keep your relaxed. He managed to tell your stories to make you at least smile which worked because even though it took awhile he managed to get you laughing and smiling. You were scared and angry with significant events like death you wonder in what ways the world changes around you. Deep down you knew you were scared on how you were supposed to live without your brother that was something you werent ready to do just yet.
"Why did you let things end the way they did" You and ice were sitting on the floor of the room across from each other. It was a question that you never asked but wanted to know. When it came down to you he'd give anything up for you and wouldn’t give you up for anything in the world. Yet it felt like when you left it was too easy. "I loved you and you just let me walk away without a thought in the world" Ice looked down for a second before looking back at you. "This life isnt for everyone. Its brutal but you know that. I never lied to you about anything. A lot of people cant handle this lifestyle and if it wasn’t something you couldn’t handle I wasn’t going to force it on you. I love you more than anything. I worked and did more so that way I could give you everything you dreamed of because you are my dream girl. I want to marry you and grow old have a family with you. Forcing you into a lifestyle like this especially if it isnt something you wanted or could handle I couldn’t do that to you. I was hoping you just werent ready and when you were you would come back but if you just couldn’t do it that’s okay. I just want what made you happy." he paused a second before he continued " I know this is a conversation we shouldve had before and right now is not the time for any of this. But you will always come before anything. I will always be here when you need me and when you call for me. Just know that"







