icrlr jk anon here - anything about his past life !!! i realized he's one of the jks we barely know anything about nd i got curious
When Jeongguk was a baby he was fussy... round and moody and difficult.
As a kid, he was closer to his mom than his dad. Both his parents worked– his dad just worked more. But still, like most little boys, he wanted to grow up to be just like his dad. His mom always reassured him with a fond smile. Told him not to worry, that he was just like his father.
Jeongguk would steal grapes when he went grocery shopping with his mom. It was his favorite thing to do when he was little because he thought it was funny when she would try not to laugh while scolding him.
Jeongguk had always been quiet, very independent for a child but his mom was his best friend back then.
That is until his favorite color began to switch between blue and red. All because the kid down that street that he would play with, Jimin, couldn’t make up his mind. Jimin said he and Jeongguk had to have the same favorite color because they had to have at least something in common if they were going to be friends. Since Jimin liked playing ‘superheroes’ and he preferred to color.
he was in his head a lot, daydreamed too much during class according to his teachers. his best subject in school was always art, though. he tried his best on all his art projects. he was a hard worker when he wanted to be. just like your dad, his mother would say.
something he worked especially hard towards was being the student that was allowed to design the middle school yearbook cover. he got to and he wanted to tell his mom about it but never ended up doing so because that was around the time his parents started fighting.
he didn’t think the fights were too serious though. since his dad always said sorry for whatever it was that he had done, and since his mom always, always forgave him.
when he was 16, his parents got divorced. his mom moved out and she didn’t take him with her. he wondered why she didn’t; if it was because he was just like his dad.
it was bad at first, but when he turned 17 it got a little easier because that was when he discovered what it felt like to love and be loved. When he figured out a person could fix and soothe.
Things were good. And for a solid year or two, he convinced himself he could live off her forever, get lost in the way it felt to love and be loved by her. Made himself believe that getting lost in her and losing himself in her were two different things.
When she broke his heart, it hurt. Of course, it did. But Jeongguk wasn’t traumatized. If anything he felt enlightened in a sick way. Like something clicked and he understood that it wasn’t her that he could live off of.
It was the feeling that she gave him.
So yeah, her breaking his heart didn’t ruin him; but it definitely changed him.
It changed his perspective and the way he perceived things. Just like how finding out the reason behind his parents' divorce was his dad cheating, did.
Jeongguk had always wanted to be just like his dad.