Everyday I have to wonder what it'd be like to have you here. To have you in my life, to have you care. To have you actually acknowledge me. To have you show any emotion besides hate towards me. Do you know what that's like to have someone put you through the things you put me through? Of course you don't. Because if you did, you would be in my life and you wouldn't have done the things you've done and made the choices you made. I have a stepfather, he's more of a father than you've ever been. He plays the role of my father because you won't and trust me, it's not hard to replace you as a father. My life is clearly better off without you and I know that, so why do I want you in it? Why do I want you to be in my life the way that your in my sister and brothers lives? Why do I want the same attention that you give them but have always refused to give me when i've done nothing wrong? Why can't you see that although I can live my life without you, I don't want you but still in a way need you there? But most importantly, why won't you give me the love a daughter needs from her biological father?