#idk vent

[kamikazegal]

Seeing selfships w alucard from hellsing makes me feel really weird because it makes me remember how i got into the series

I was on a server where was a guy who was really into him and also was realy open about his fantasies and describing them and im also pretty sure there was some fetish content and stuff....

Anyways always i see one of those i feel kind of grossed out about it.... also i was in that server like 6 years ago but i unfortunatly cannot forgot about the amout of bdsm details and the series turned out to be my all time favourite and im kinda stuck with it....

To be clear this isnt some kind of atack towards anyone

[novampiresremain]

thinking bout getting some kind of mobility aid, but i have a hard time thinking i actually need it and i dont need to just "work out more" sigh. im trying to be like, even if that was the case- if i need mobility aid i need a mobility aid. still suspect chronic fatigue syndrome etc. i feel like i have bad phases and okay phases. rn im in a bad phase, makes it hard to get out of bed ( and its not depression sadness etc ) like im so tired and fatigued everyday which leads to weakness. i cant really even clean idk

i just dont know how to justify it still depsite thinking all this i go like i dont need it etc etc i feel like such a faker tbh

but im thinking wheelchair or something because. id like something that can help me get outside even on days im struggling to go out because im so damn tired

just feels all impossible and unrealistic ig?

[deathtokillian]

I hate how people say having trans representation will make people trans. Because not only is that not how it works but do you want to know what my “trans representation” was?

The Maury show where they would mock trans people and had episodes like “MAN OR WOMEN” where they would bring people out and have the audience guess if they were a man or a woman. (Which is also awful if they were a woman having people think you were male by the way you looked???)

Also the 1999 movie Boys Don’t Cry

You know the movie (that I hate btw) about Brandon Teena a transgender man who was sexually assaulted and murdered. THAT was my trans representation.

[dirtcore7]

I want attention so bad

That I think I'm a horrible and greedy person for it.

I wnat attention in a server, I make something, nd I get no attention and I'm selfish for wanting attention became they arnt guilty for a crime of not being interested in me

Why am I like this, I've been told my post that not everyones gonna think about you

That not everyone thinks your a horrible person in every moment

But I just want attention what else am I supposed to think of.

I can't help it, I just want attention and I have friends but

Why is my socialising with strangers and socialising with the people I know will respond so diffrent in energy.

....

Alrighty my moment of attention seeking yearnest is done

Ima write a better minecraft movie outline about piggin and leave at as one my project wips

[moonyswarmsweaters]

Vent? (Kinda)

does anyone else just feel like they look at gender and g like ‘meh’

ilI’m afab, very comfortable with she/her pronouns, and look female but if someone called me a man or used some different pronouns I would just be like ‘ok? Cool?’ Bc I don’t see any of that as bad or derogatory in any way.

“you dress like a dude” K? Some dudes dress well and some don’t

“You throw like a girl” like a sporty girl or one that can’t throw? Be more specific

Gender is a social construct that in my pov was built based on some expectation from people based on their birth sex and gender roles are just weird.

a lot of people feel comfortable with gender and it’s roles and I’m happy for them because it’s what’s right for them.

I just fell like I’m walking on a line and next to me is a different ‘path’ that is gender. It is messy and it is colorful but it’s like next to me, and I’m just going along with it

idk

if that make sense to anybody?

anyways

does it have a word or smt? Do anyone else relate to that shit or is it’s just my fucked shit?

[llerriiaa]

my worth is warm

it trickles down my mouth like honey

sickly sweet

down my neck,my chest, my fingertips

till it reaches you

you drag it out like the cigarette in between your teeth

just eat me already

[andiskl]

[eydilily]

im still happy ohm retweeted my drawing of him!!! he's such a cutie