My friends suck and I wish i was dead.

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My friends suck and I wish i was dead.
We keep being hungry because we forgot we ate or someone switches and they are hungry and it sucks.
We can't do jackshit cuz whoever is fronting doesn't want to, or we're frozen in place, or the fronter doesn't care, or adhd paralysis or gods knows what.
AND the main fronter hates all my friends and most social interaction, but the other fronters get super sad and depressed when alone, so everything sucks.
The system hates our friends but misses them and needs them, they hate doing our hobbies but crave it and need it deeply, and they keep eating and then feeling bad about it.
"she breasted boobly" is how i felt when we wore a normal bra for the first time in years while I was fronting.
Imagine being a cool fat dude and then BOOM, you've got boobs, a whole ass cleavage.
We are currently working on getting our Autism diagnosis and we decided to be honest and not desguise the fact that we're a system, and the woman was actually very nice and asked professional questions and reassured us, we showed her some of our stuff (our diary, not as personal as it sounds), and she did say that the differences in handwritting and language and everything made it quite clear.
And its great! Because we haven't been able to get a diagnosis but this is the second professional that believes us and doesn't doubt that we are indeed a system.
"We don't have enough amnesia to have DID."
"It's probably just us lying to ourselves-"
/major trauma event./
Not knowing who we are, being blurry all the time, having to deal with people thinking they know us but not really...
Being a system is uninstalling Tinder because NO GUYS, WE ARE NOT THAT DESPERATE.
Calm tf down. Please.
There's someone who's trying to be the new host so they try to keep the peace.
And then there's others that just act impulsively and do not care for consequences...
Being a system is certainly something.
when people say mainstream is shit
there's a reason why so many people like it and why it's popular
it's because it sounds good...