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[kissing Bangchan for the first time]
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(cw: fluff, cheesy, shy!fmc, idol!bangchan, no mention of Y/N, slightly suggestive) [a/n: my first post on tumblr! let me know what you think!]
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It was a rare day off for Chan, and he had invited you to spend it with him. So you both unanimously decided to spend it doing nothing; you stayed in, cooked together, and watched movies together while cuddling in bed.
You had been dating for a couple of weeks, and it had been one of the most exhilarating and wonderful times of your life. Chan was always so thoughtful and observant; he would often find it both hilarious and sad when you were surprised by the things he would do for you and notice about you. When you told him how it made you feel seen yet exposed at the same time, he told you he felt the same way when you talked to him about certain things; you had managed to understand him like nobody else, he told you in such a short period of time. And just the way you existed, sometimes in paradoxical ways, made him fall for you even more.
As the credits started rolling, you sat up slowly out of his arms and stretched. He pouted slightly at the loss of touch but caressed your back in small soothing circles. Being around him made you feel so much at ease that sometimes you felt sleepy. You both started discussing the movie, and midway through the conversation, his phone beeped. He ignored it, engrossed in the passionate way you were describing your distaste for a specific character. But about 5 minutes later, it rang, and he groaned, wondering who was disturbing him on his day off.
“Hello? Yes, hi…” he said, trying to sound polite. “Oh, really? I’ll check it out. Wait, right away?” his expression changed from annoyance to surprise to excitement within a couple of seconds, and you couldn't help but chuckle softly as he hung up the call.
“I am so sorry, baby. I know I strictly try to keep my work away on OUR time but–”
You cut him off, trying to reassure him. “No, no! It’s okay, please don't apologise, it seems important.”
“I– N–Yeah… I am so sorry; it won't take up more than 5 minutes, max, I promise.” His apologetic face made your chest twist.
You shook your head, and reassuringly rubbed his upper arm and gave it a small squeeze. “Chan, really, it is okay. I need to get a glass of water anyway,” you said, about to get up, but he pulled you back by the same hand you had been touching him with.
“No, wait, I–” he took a deep breath, “I actually want you to see this,” he said, his eyes pleading.
You were taken aback for a second. “I– oh? Is that allowed? Will they not say anything?”
Dating a K-pop idol in secret meant FBI-level privacy. You did not exist around him for the public. You were a ghost, only he and his closest could see. You had made peace with the fact that you couldn't love each other as freely and as loudly as you both wanted to. It all happened so quickly: one moment you were stealing glances at each other, trying not to get caught, and the next you found yourselves holding hands, walking by the river. Of course, in the beginning you were worried about how hard it would be dating him, but once you saw him just existing around you and other people, his genuine kindness and love for people, his refusal to let go of his softness in his cutthroat harsh reality of the industry, you knew he was worth everything this world has to offer and more, and you wanted to make sure he got it. So you stayed because the secrecy was a small price to pay if it meant you could love this man and be loved by him.
“No, not at all, you're a part of the family now,” he said, pulling you closer into his side and wrapping an arm around you, kissing the top of your head and making you blush.
“I–What is it anyway?” You asked, dazed, after a few seconds, trying to recover from what he had just told you and also the feeling of his lips on you.
“Oh, so… it is almost the final draft of our next music videos. Well– one of the music videos because we’re doing some in units and solos.”
“Oh? That sounds fun! So am I like– one of the first normies to get a sneak peek?” you joked.
He laughed and gave you a squeeze, “Nooo, you’re not a normie; I told you you're an insider now.”
“I– okay…” You blushed, still not used to being and feeling so loved and accepted.
“Okay, so it is– a bit… Y’know what, I'm just gonna let you watch it, and you tell me what you think of it,” he smirked.
“Okay, suspense king.” You said, narrowing your eyes.
“Seriously, just watch, you'll understand.” His tongue-in-cheek face made you feel things.
“Okay.” You mumbled, and he hit play, and what unfolded in front of your eyes was nothing you could've ever expected. Your jaw was on the floor within the first minute, and you had goosebumps all over. Chan and the boys were planning to release this song for Valentine's Day, and to say it was their sexiest MV yet would be an understatement. It was way more… scandalous than Red Lights and was sure to cause some serious crashouts, judging by your reaction.
But what made your breath catch and heart race was Chan’s part; he was singing about something really suggestive, while looking straight into your soul through the screen. No matter how much you wanted to look away, you were completely enraptured, missing how he was watching you intently.
The video ended, but you just sat there frozen. “So? What do you think?” he asked.
Your brain had started bombarding you with feral thoughts, and you felt so shy you couldn't meet his eyes. He had been watching you the entire time, and he could tell the video was going to have the desired effect. He enjoyed making you flustered, so right now, he was actually on cloud nine.
When you didn't move or respond, he softly tapped your arm, and you snapped back into reality, blushing profusely. “I– um”, you gulped, trying to remember what he had asked but gave up as you realised your throat was dry.
You got up in a daze, wide-eyed, refusing to meet his gaze and mumbled a faint “I–need water.”
He sat there in slight shock but still amused as he watched you basically run to the kitchen to catch your breath and calm down a bit. “Wait, really?” he said, laughing.
Chan often teased you; he loved seeing you get worked up, and even though you pretended to be annoyed, you secretly loved it, and you knew he knew that you loved it. But this was something else. He had never seen you so shy and flustered. But he realised it made sense because the video and the lyrics were supposed to be racy, and he chuckled to himself as it clicked why you ran off. He quickly texted a reply and some pointers to his manager and headed in after you.
You stood facing the sink with a water bottle in your hand, staring into space, trying to calm your unholy thoughts.
You jumped a little as you realised he had come up close behind you, trying not to smile as he softly called out your name.
You placed the water bottle down and exhaled a shaky hi back, and only then did he wrap his arms around your waist.
You opened your mouth to say you were okay, but he started placing featherlight kisses on your shoulder and the words died in your throat. He slowly made his way closer to your neck, and when he finally planted his lips on a sensitive spot on your neck, you exhaled, trembling slightly. He felt your racing pulse on his lips when he lingered a bit too long.
You felt the temperature in the room skyrocket all of a sudden, and started feeling hot. You exhaled shakily and ran your hands under the cool water and touched it to your forehead, hoping to cool yourself down a little.
He chuckled, turned you around by your waist and asked, “Hey, are you okay?” His concerned eyes were sparkling with mischief and bored holes into your flushed face.
You blushed even more, embarrassed knowing he knew what you were thinking and how you were actually feeling. “Yeah, I'm okay, just feel a bit hot,” you said, touching your cheeks, wanting to WILL the water into your pores, hoping to calm yourself.
“Oh no, darling… will this help…?” he leaned in, looping his arms around your waist. You thought he was going to hug you and found that so cute you chuckled a little, but it was cut short by the sound of the tap running.
You looked at him confused when he pulled back; the water turned off. He smiled, hoping to reassure you, trying to hide his nervousness about what he was about to do next. He cupped your face with his wet hands, which were cold, cooler than yours were. You didn't know if it was because of the temperature difference or his proximity, but you shivered and gasped softly, lips parting. He took the opportunity and captured your lips between his, tenderly.
It took your brain a second to process, and you quickly closed your wide eyes, kissing him back softly. He smiled into the kiss as your hands wrapped around his waist and grabbed his shirt.
It's not like you hadn't kissed anyone before, but kissing Chan set your skin on fire. He wanted to make sure you knew exactly how he felt about you, and he poured all his emotions into his kiss.
He pulled away and touched his forehead to yours; you kept your eyes shut, half out of shyness and half trying to memorise the feeling of his lips.
As you tried to catch your breath, you chuckled. “That was a very counterproductive way of trying to get me to calm down.”
He laughed as one of his hands slid down to your neck, and his thumb pushed your chin up, making you look at him. “Who said I wanted to calm you down?” he whispered with a teasing smirk on his face.
Your jaw dropped slightly, but you couldn't manage to form a reply. So you just sighed and ran your hands from his waist to his stomach and up his chest, bunching up his shirt. “You’re lucky I like you,” you said before crashing your lips onto his.
He stiffened at first, not expecting you to take the lead, but quickly relaxed into the kiss, deepening it, turning it fervent. His hand slid down from your cheek to your waist as the other shifted slightly and gently pulled at the hair on the nape of your neck, making you hum against his lips.
He pulled back, both of you out of breath, asking if you were okay. You nodded, reassuring him you were more than okay.
“Honestly speaking… I’ve been wanting to do that ever since I laid eyes on you.” He said, giving you a soft peck.
“Me too.” You whispered and tugged at his shirt absentmindedly. He chuckled and picked you up, wrapping your legs around his waist, making you squeal in surprise and carried you like you weighed nothing.
“Hey, you never told me what you thought of the music video,” he said with a teasing glint in his eyes after sitting down on the couch with you straddling his lap.
You scrunched your nose, trying to stop yourself from blushing, but failed, so you slowly brought your hands down from his neck to his chest. “You wanna know what I thought of it?” It was your turn to tease him, and it must've been working because his grip on your waist tightened slightly.
He tried to control his smirk but failed, as you saw his tongue-in-cheek. “Yeah, what DID you think?” he asked, his hands trailing slowly up and down your back.
You shivered slightly and grabbed his shirt. “I thought… this–” you whispered, leaning in, but before you could kiss him, he pushed you down on the couch, making you yelp in surprise.
You looked at him in shock at how easily he was able to manhandle you. He hovered over you for a second, making sure this was okay with you and then kissed you deeply, conveying his need. Every touch of his left goosebumps in its wake, stealing your breath away.
He pulled back after a few seconds. “You were saying…?” he breathed, teasing.
You laughed softly, your hands tangling in his hair. “That is exactly what I was saying.” You whispered, pulling him down to kiss him again.
You both ended up spending the rest of the evening kissing, talking, and then kissing some more.
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This is my original work. All rights are reserved. No AI was or will ever be used in my work.
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