#idontknowhowifeel

[ilikecoffeealot]

Lana del Rey ~ Venice Bitch

[fuxkme-imabadgirl-blog]

How can I love you if I don't love myself

[devotedlysparklystranger-blog1]

I don’t know if I’m in love with him.

But I know he’s not in love with me.

To be honest, unrequited affection is something we’ve all struggled with at some point.  Whether it’s with that boy who just doesn’t seem to get that you’re into him, that puppy that runs away when you try to pet it, or that baby that insists on crying every time you try and play peek-a-boo.

All these things are just examples of some instances in which we want something that just isn’t happening for us.

So what do we do?

At times, we blame ourselves.  We wonder why things don’t work out for us.  We wonder if they ever will.  But they will.  We just have to be patient.

That being said, the whole “being-drawn-to-someone-who’s-taken” thing is another story.

Now, I am currently experiencing feelings for a certain someone who is in a relationship.  He’s a great guy.  Sure, we butt heads at times, but he’s pretty incredible nonetheless.  And I’m not gonna lie... his girlfriend is a sweetheart.(Which makes the whole “hate the girlfriend” idea, impossible)  They seem ok as a couple.  Sure it’s hard to see them together and at times, I regret not making my move when I had the chance... but as you’ll come to see in these posts, that’s my curse: I always miss my chances.

As you can probably tell, I’m not really focused while writing this post.  I’m trying not to think about the bad stuff that has happened and focus on the good.  So for now, I’m just going to accept the fact that desiring the undesirable isn’t ideal... but that doesn’t mean we can stop it.

[contracat25]

So I guess I own a couch now? #antiques #appartmentliving #idontknowhowifeel #adulting

[therealnotes]

Space

Put a space between each word. It can make words meaningful Should we make a space so that our relationship has a meaning? Yes, I'm trying to do But it seems you don't notice at all Or maybe your space button has replaced into delete button? So pathetic!

[fadoodle-s]

I feel like all these negative things In life are there to make me stronger, but my stomachs turning and my heart is hurting now.

[f-lame]

i would never have imagined for life to be like this right now, but i'm going with it for now...

i think soon, things will be very different... 

[lk692-blog]

Last night was fun. Went to a friends, sophisticated dinner party ensued (I'm so classy) But what did I learn? That forgetting your prescription and then going out and drinking wine and smoking nasty menthol cigarettes is a TERRIBLE PLAN. Tremor was so bad, cold sweats ensued, along with a horrendous amount of Jesus-I'm-gunna-die nausea and a headache that felt like my skull was going to cave in on itself. Best part? Despite having had this over a year, still nobody knows what's wrong with me. Could be as simple as something connected with blood sugar. Could be a brain tumour. So that's fun to think about. Also Had a slightly tipsy phone call with someone who shall remain nameless last night, during which they casually mentioned the fact they won't be in college anymore and that comment hit me more than it fucking should have. Because it shouldn't be possible to miss someone you aren't that close to. And I want to divorce my feelings and move the fuck on. But my brains like "hey, aha, er, NO."