Moving on!
Ever wonder why it feel like no matter how much we try we never seem to be able to move on from the past? That’s the way things have been for me the past few days. I’m a wife to an airmen in the air force and we’ve lived this life for 5 long years together and I absolutely love it I’m involved in so much stuff and I’ve met some pretty amazing people but at the same time I also hate it because even though I’m 24 and my friends are older than me it feels like being in high school all over again. I have 2 diffent sets of friends we shall call them fire and ice okay? So my ice group is having problems with my fire group but I absolutely don’t want to have to choose sides but I constantly feels like my ice side keeps trying to put me in the middle and my fire friends thought I didn’t want to be with them any more because of ice and honestly this shouldn’t be so stress full but it is and it’s hard because we all used to be one big happy group and I’m not saying that they don’t have valid reasons for why ever they all don’t like each other but I have no individual problems with any of you, I want to be friends with every one.
In all honesty I want my life back, I need to take my life back. I’ve not been eating right, I’m not sleeping, I would honestly spend every waking moment in my bed or on my favorite chair reading, writing and watching my favorite shows because that is where I feel safe that is where I feel like me the most. I feel free and like the weight of the world isn’t on my shoulders. I can sit there a lose my self in a book and never even notice the world passing me by.