Process Journal: Evaluation
“It’s the final countdown!” These words from my favorite 80s song echo in my head as I think of finally reaching the evaluation stage of this project. It’s definitely been a long road to get here, but the journey has definitely been worth it as now I can finally see an idea through to the finish. Throughout this entire process, I’ve dealt with a lot of imposter syndrome that has prevented me from speaking up in class and voicing my opinion, as I was scared that my ideas were too “up-in-the-air” and “dumb” as compared to my teammates who were a little more knowledgeable about the subject matter and how to realistically implement the solution. I can probably say that the idea of having to be responsible for a portion of the project definitely hindered me from fully investing myself into the work as I was so clouded by doubt whether or not I would fail or have a large enough impact on the project itself.
I remember my team always used to tell me to get my voice out there in class to feel like I was an adequate member of the team. At the time, I always used to wonder “why are they pushing me to be so uncomfortable? I DONT WANT TO SPEAK!” However, the more I think about it, the more I realize that a team is only as strong as those who voice their opinions. If I wasn’t voicing my opinions, what exactly was I doing for my team? I have never been good at taking criticism as I am a perfectionist who gets married to their ideas, but the more I listened to the feedback we were getting repeatedly from the professor each week, I knew that I had to step in and find some way to change the product, or else we would never get any work done. It was definitely challenging to be okay with having team members and outsiders pick apart something that you are passionate about, but at the end of the day, no pain no gain. It was time to let my guard down to be open to the discomfort so that the product would have the best chance of success and viability.
Overall, this entire experience has pushed me WAY out of my comfort zone in terms and has forced me to try to utilize different methods and techniques than the ones that I am used to using. I am definitely someone who is drawn to creativity because of the ability to dedicate one’s time and energy to learning the craft, but I also am someone who easily gets impatient when things don’t work out the way that they are supposed to. When creating a product, creativity is important, but it is also important to be realistic and understand that you are creating something for more than just yourself to enjoy. It is more about quality than quantity, because it is better to have one thing that works and improves someone’s life rather than many things that hinder someone. I am definitely excited that this process is over, but I look forward to taking what I have learned over the course of this project and applying it to future projects and products that I design.










