#ihatethisfeeling

[djdrazun]

It seems I have a thing for women who couldn't care less about me. It's not the first time but it needs to be the last. This is obviously a ME problem. A problem I need to fix...

I hate that the ones I connect with and relate to are who I feel so drawn to. And they will indulge me in their low times and forget about me in the highs.....

I'm always a fucking mistake they didnt mean to cause. She doesnt even recall any of it... how convenient for her. I should've listened to everyone around me. To her own kin. I knew better..... so why does this hurt so bad? Why does it feel like she is the only woman left in the world?

I HATE EMOTION. I want to be a stone faced sociopath.....then maybe the ones I feel for will love me back....

[stayathomegoth]

This whole quarantine/staying home thing makes me feel like I'm 16 again. I wasn't in a good head space at 16 & I don't ever wanna feel like that again nor do I wanna do anything like that again. But lately I can feel myself slipping into that 16 year old mentality & honestly I don't know what's going to happen this time.......

[mokaliciouss]

I hate feeling nostalgic.

[christopher-michael93-blog]

I just don’t fucking know anymore, I’ve got everything I could ever want in the woman of my dreams, my fiancé, a family on my mind. I always find a way to fuck things up and I end up hating my fucking self. I’m 33,000$ in debt, I’m 100%broke, can’t find a job to save my life, my parents fucking hate my guts, my two previous daughters are next to non existent at this point and no matter what the fuck I do I can’t fucking make anyone happy. I’m so fucking sick of feeling like this. I’m not sleeping, I’m not eating, I have no way of relieving stress, my car broke down, my Xbox data is gone my dog needs to go to the vet and I can’t take him with no money and no car. My fiancé is stressed out to the max because I’m not doing nearly enough for her. I can’t even breathe without feeling like my heart and lungs are literally going to explode inside my chest and it’s not a fun feeling. I’m so fucking happy with my fiancé but I just can’t get shit right. I’m just fucking destined for a wooden box and it can’t come fast enough.

[wadword]

Distressed Domino

The first word of the collection is here- DISTRESSED DOMINO

A domino tips back and forth, mostly unsteady swaying around, ready to fall over and gee, i pity the little guy.  Must be under a lot of stress huh? the whole team’s future depends on it and one misstep- ITS DOOMED.

But how does this phrase work?

IT’S Perfect for describing ur nerve-wracking nervousness, the i’m soo anxious foir tomorrows exam scenarios, indecisiveness ( example- shld  pick option A or option B?) swaying between choices, unsure of how to proceed and just being STRESSED when you have to choose. The feeling sucks guys. Stuttering and pondering for even the smallest of choice and stressing out over the most insignificant things. i hate being a distressed domino.

[djdrazun]

Say you dont recall

Doesnt mean it didnt happen

Drunken lie or not

Discipline is what you're lacking

Now I'm stuck feeling like this was all a big mistake

You only wanted me when his attention went astray

I understand. A helping hand. A boy that would never tell you no.

I had a choice. And never voiced. That I couldn't let you go.

But you're the reason, I woke up. And the reason I dont sleep.

Has no one ever told you? What you sow is what you reap.

[djdrazun]

I got the answer straightforward. It's done. I knew the answer....and i still chose this route. Why do i only want what i cant have????

Why is this so hard for me???

I need to stop giving in to the emotions and fix whatever the fuck is wrong with me. Why am I so easily cast aside as collateral damage?

Why do I keep hearing "I didnt do anything to make you think that" by women who for damn fucking sure made me think that????

I think its gonna be easier to believe the intimate moments I did have with her were all a dream. Cus accepting them as reality is fucking heartbreaking....

[k-tinx-bye]

More often than not, the one that seems okay needs fixing too.