I just don’t fucking know anymore, I’ve got everything I could ever want in the woman of my dreams, my fiancé, a family on my mind. I always find a way to fuck things up and I end up hating my fucking self. I’m 33,000$ in debt, I’m 100%broke, can’t find a job to save my life, my parents fucking hate my guts, my two previous daughters are next to non existent at this point and no matter what the fuck I do I can’t fucking make anyone happy. I’m so fucking sick of feeling like this. I’m not sleeping, I’m not eating, I have no way of relieving stress, my car broke down, my Xbox data is gone my dog needs to go to the vet and I can’t take him with no money and no car. My fiancé is stressed out to the max because I’m not doing nearly enough for her. I can’t even breathe without feeling like my heart and lungs are literally going to explode inside my chest and it’s not a fun feeling. I’m so fucking happy with my fiancé but I just can’t get shit right. I’m just fucking destined for a wooden box and it can’t come fast enough.











