One of the only beings to be there for me at all moments of my being and seeing living in and tolerating all of the loss and isolation and confusion before I slowly found my path after the surgeries is now unable to walk and I am debating feeding him with a water dropper. I'm being told that he's suffering and needs to be put to sleep. Only, I have felt that way before and also believed it whole hearted, because I barely ever sleep and wanted nothing more.....
I still got better, though I was suffering. I still got better. I was even put to sleep wrong through a couple surgeries, I still healed I think. Anesthesia and Euthanization are obviously complicated subjects with me. Also, warning: Dare I say triggering? This is someone that stuck with me ride or die through all my adult life trauma, addiction, destruction and the years of unending loudass music it gave birth to. He's not crying or in agony that I can tell, is it so cruel of me to not want to inject him with any outside adulterants and be here with him for a moment. However long that is?
I feel like I have time and there's no need to play or pay doctor. I've always believed in diving timing and trusting both patterns and numerology, and found my way full faith in it. Most times without memory because of a condition called retrograde amnesia. This video I feel blessed I just found is the most perfect and positive day, with my beloved rescued, turned rescuer "cat down the road" - Working out a riff idea while Panda chills happily behind me, as an old friend Nolan Morrow staying on my couch talks out my drum machine setup and I learn some #spiritscience
6 likes, 1 comments - rosyrhodesmusic on June 18, 2023: "When heavy metal meets drum and bass 🔥🎸🥁 Rocking out with some riff ideas with #dnb
I will miss you till our paths meet again,
"Until Valhalla!!"
🐼😻♥️
Panda, My favourite Norwegian forest cat friend, my coincidencentally rescued "cat down the road". Please lend me your strength and cool while I try to navigate this #roadtorecovery
Here's a song off of my first EP made with my first cat Freddie's pur:
Sometime in the future I'll share a song I made for my next pet Kitty Mercury that I called Left Behind. With Freddie Mercury and Panda, there have always been kitties around me when I've been creating, many times getting me to take a break and pet them
Blessed Be everyone, I hope I didn't leave anyone feeling down and please comment or pm about your moments of mental health, or wealth. I will come out of this stronger: I dropped a single Tarot twice yesterday: the Strength card both times. I drew temperance next time I consulted my cards. I'm blessed that this special guy will have taught me alot about both once I get back to feeling better and have some normalcy again. Have an excellent new year with your loved ones. Cherish every moment of it my friends! 🙏♥️🌹🛣️
Non mi dimenticherò mai la prima volta che ti ho visto. Eri il cucciolo più cicciotto e patatoso di tutti!! . Mi mancherai Argo, mi mancherà fare la lotta nel giardino, rincorrerti per farti smettere di abbaiare al nulla, il costringerti a fare il bagnetto 😂, il tuo russare così forte da riuscire a svegliarmi. Mi mancherà il tuo carattere di merda, il fatto che non magiavi se non era la mamma a dirtelo, che riuscivi a capire tutto guardandomi con que tuoi occhioni. . La cosa che mi mancherà di più sarà il suono della tua coda che sbatte contro la porta, xke sapevi perfettamente che ero io... Che ero tornata a casa, eri felice di potermi riempire di bava e giocare con me!! Sarò stata lontana ma ero lì con te... Ti ho abbracciato, ti ho dato un bacino dicendoti che andrà tutto bene. . Mi mancherai fratellino! ❤️ . #truelove #cane #canecorso #illseeyouinmydreams #illseeyouagain #illseeyousoon #tivogliobene #tivogliobeneargo #iloveyousomuch #iloveyou❤️ #iloveyou #Argo (presso Auckland, New Zealand) https://www.instagram.com/p/CEEFID_nZDb/?igshid=a53k2s34omvl
Happy 29th Birthday, Rusty! I Miss You EVERYDAY, Booboo! Sit, Down, Rollover, now Speak! GOOD BOYYYY! I LOVE YOU SO F*@%#NG MUCH, AND HAVE EVERYDAY SINCE WE FIRST BROUGHT YOU INTO OUR FAMILY, Mom & Dad, say "We Miss You Checking Up On Us Every Night To Make Sure We Were Always Okay Before You Would Fall Asleep Sleep Between Our Rooms Or At Louie's Feet! We Love You And Will Bring You Your Birthday Gift On Monday. Only Wish That We Could Still Watch You Unwrap The Gift In Person Like You Did Every Year And On Christmas Morning! Keep Resting In Peace, And We Will All See You Again." Rusty, You still are the Best Friend I've Ever Had... #Rusty #RustyWasMyDogAndStillIs #IllSeeYouAgain #YourSistersSayBark #IMissYou #ILoveYou #HappyBirthday #RustyTheSuperhound #ShadowRabbitART (at Nassau County, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz09bUiBw4Q/?igshid=hhhko0td2v6j
The slideshow music video for the track "I'll See You Again" is up on YouTube right now here https://t.co/Q61zmawvp0 #Justinsane #IllSeeYouAgain #ApocalypticentEntertainment #AE2018 #RIPKitty #MusicVideo
#SpiritOfTheSkyhawk is coming very soon!!! In the meantime, keep an eye out for the single "I'll See You Again" debuting on the @apocalypticentertainment Facebook page June 24 and the MUSIC VIDEO debuts on the AE YouTube channel June 29 https://m.youtube.com/channel/UChe3n-O3eMZf0zRI2qESfdA #IllSeeYouAgain #Justinsane #SuperNinja #ApocalypticentEntertainment
Justinsane's VERY FIRST MUSIC VIDEO debuts June 29 for the track titled "I'll See You Again" off his upcoming EP "Spirit Of The Skyhawk"!!! https://www.facebook.com/apocalypticentertainment/ #Justinsane #SuperNinja #ApocalypticentEntertainment #IllSeeYouAgain #SpiritOfTheSkyhawk #MusicVideo #June29