🌲✨ She wandered into the forest, wrapped in a blue robe of sadness, seeking solace among the wildflowers. 🍂💙 In this autumn of endings, her losses whispered through the trees… but in the heart of solitude, she unearthed her strength. 🌼
One of the only beings to be there for me at all moments of my being and seeing living in and tolerating all of the loss and isolation and confusion before I slowly found my path after the surgeries is now unable to walk and I am debating feeding him with a water dropper. I'm being told that he's suffering and needs to be put to sleep. Only, I have felt that way before and also believed it whole hearted, because I barely ever sleep and wanted nothing more.....
I still got better, though I was suffering. I still got better. I was even put to sleep wrong through a couple surgeries, I still healed I think. Anesthesia and Euthanization are obviously complicated subjects with me. Also, warning: Dare I say triggering? This is someone that stuck with me ride or die through all my adult life trauma, addiction, destruction and the years of unending loudass music it gave birth to. He's not crying or in agony that I can tell, is it so cruel of me to not want to inject him with any outside adulterants and be here with him for a moment. However long that is?
I feel like I have time and there's no need to play or pay doctor. I've always believed in diving timing and trusting both patterns and numerology, and found my way full faith in it. Most times without memory because of a condition called retrograde amnesia. This video I feel blessed I just found is the most perfect and positive day, with my beloved rescued, turned rescuer "cat down the road" - Working out a riff idea while Panda chills happily behind me, as an old friend Nolan Morrow staying on my couch talks out my drum machine setup and I learn some #spiritscience
6 likes, 1 comments - rosyrhodesmusic on June 18, 2023: "When heavy metal meets drum and bass 🔥🎸🥁 Rocking out with some riff ideas with #dnb
I will miss you till our paths meet again,
"Until Valhalla!!"
🐼😻♥️
Panda, My favourite Norwegian forest cat friend, my coincidencentally rescued "cat down the road". Please lend me your strength and cool while I try to navigate this #roadtorecovery
Here's a song off of my first EP made with my first cat Freddie's pur:
Sometime in the future I'll share a song I made for my next pet Kitty Mercury that I called Left Behind. With Freddie Mercury and Panda, there have always been kitties around me when I've been creating, many times getting me to take a break and pet them
Blessed Be everyone, I hope I didn't leave anyone feeling down and please comment or pm about your moments of mental health, or wealth. I will come out of this stronger: I dropped a single Tarot twice yesterday: the Strength card both times. I drew temperance next time I consulted my cards. I'm blessed that this special guy will have taught me alot about both once I get back to feeling better and have some normalcy again. Have an excellent new year with your loved ones. Cherish every moment of it my friends! 🙏♥️🌹🛣️
Nothing has gone the way I thought it would this year. I didn't think my shoulder injury would become such a problem. I deffinitely didn't think I'd end up single just after my 21st. I didn't think I'd go through so much emotional crap or get weird anonymous letters at my work place telling me to "die in hell". I didn't think I'd have the health problems that have occurred. But then again, I didn't think I'd be going to the gym on a Saturday night, and loving it! In fact if it wasn't for my shoulder Injury and my physiotherapist, I wouldn't have joined the gym or found a new determination I didn't know I had. Or let alone needed. I have found out who really cares about me, even with all the shit going on. I just need to keep this positive mindset and get through it 💪🖒 On a side note, if anyone is wanting a yarn, I'm always up for one! #findingstrength #vent #tryingtobepostive #gym #nz
