#im angst

[guulabii]

academia is just white women repeating and stealing everything brown and black women have been saying for centuries

[yeosangs-horizon]

[1:12] -> Study

You felt yourself dozing off every couple of seconds as you tried to refocus yourself onto the page of notes that you had been slaving over for the past couple of days. You had one of the hardest midterms coming up for one of your classes and you were beyond stressed.

You stared at the three cups of coffee that you had managed to finish just tonight. You yawned as you let your eyes wander back into the page of notes, reading the sentence over and over again but not comprehending. 

You were dozing off when you heard a door open and shut in the background but paying no attention to it, you let your head slump from the hand that it was resting on. Almost in an instance from a distance, you heard a bag drop to the floor and a warmth wrap around your head. You felt your head free-fall into a comfy and soft figure.

“Studying hard (Y/N) honey?” the deep voice called out to you. You hummed in response as you clutched onto the figure more. 

“Kyunnie…” you mumbled as you felt yourself being lifted from your chair and gently set down on the soft sheets of your bed.

“Babe we should sleep, we’ve both been hard at work I imagine.” he gently mumbled to you while grazing his lips over your tender cheeks. 

Your eyes instantly flash open as you called out, “Wait no, Changkyun! I need to finish studying this, oh shit-- I’m not tired nope!” 

Before you could move, you felt a pair of strong arms engulf you from behind as you quickly gave up your struggle to get out of them. 

“Nope, you’re staying here with me and sleeping. I missed you and you deserve a break okay?” he whispered to you as he planted soft kisses behind your ear. 

You managed to ease into his clasp over you and started to relax as he fluttered kisses down to your neck. You felt yourself slowly drift off from your consciousness, with a smile on your face, as your boyfriend’s sweet scent managed to drive all of your struggles and stress from the day away.

[aamaimonn]

Lookalike by Conan Gray is timeskip!Kagehina and you can’t convince me otherwise

[hotcocosharing]

Life Couldn't Be Better (IM Angst)

Fandom: Irresistible Mistake Category: Angstt Character: Yukihisa Maki Notes: My first fanfic of Maki, it’s bad I know but I feel like I am out of my game lately

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Life is good- a little too good to be true for others but definitely not you.

Sandwiching between sweating high school kids from sports activities to yawning white collars with stinky breath, the thought of seeing the love of your life is strong enough for you to make it through the remaining fifteenth minutes of train ride.

Hurrying yours footsteps and meeting with smiling faces of working women in each other's arms for girls night out while you walk into the opposite direction of business district with some take away that's hopefully still warm by the time you get to the office.

It's a surprise to step into a darken floor when it's only eight in the evening but a note on the notice board has got you both curious and confused at the fact that the office has closed since afternoon. Checking your phone again to make sure you've read the message right about pulling an all nighter so you press speed dial to confirm. You soon hear a familiar voice which belongs to the person you've been looking forward to see but through the office instead of your receiver, following the loud response which you often refer it as music to your ears.

Taking a deep breath you start walking down the corridor and follow the trail of breathless moaning and whimpering, feeling the twist in your stomach and adrenaline flowing through your veins, preparing for what's behind closed door. Your trembling hand land on the cold, black door knob that holds the answer. You turn it, finding a dark hair man standing at the meeting table with a woman bending over and begging for more.

No one notice you until a chuckle leaves your lips unintentionally, "Good to see you're working hard."

Both parties gasp in shock but the tangled expression on your wife's face only sicken you further more, "Yuki...hisa!" They are considered lucky for the only thing being thrown at is the take away dinner you've brought for your wife soon to be ex wife, result of desperate yet successful attempt to contain your rage at the sight of your cheating wife.

With the last ounce of sanity left inside, you quickly lift your phone up and snap their pictures of proof before informing your wife to expect the divorce paper and she won't receive a penny unless the upcoming star of the firm wants a lawsuit since he has no problem being the victim, his ego is already completely crushed.

Everyone's right, Yukihisa Maki's life was too good to be true.

[yeosangs-horizon]

Company (Changkyun x Reader) 

Genre: Fluff Word Count: 1.8k

The time on my watch said 9:40 PM, almost time to close this damn coffee shop and get on with my night. I looked outside the foggy streets, anticipating anybody that would come in that this time of night. 

The jazz music blasted softly in the depths of the shop as I leaned and rested my hand on my mandible, contemplating thoughts and ideas through my brain. I didn’t even take note when the soft jingle of the bell on the door rang as a tall brown haired man with soft facial features stepped in. I looked up and shook my head as my subconscious thoughts faded away once more.

I gazed up, my eyes meeting his soft mocha pupils as I set off a fake grin, keeping my appearance with the social ‘norm’. “What can I get started up for you?” I asked, doing my regular duties as a barista. “Just one iced caramel macchiato please,” he spoke with his low toned voice throughout the quiet cafe. I nodded as I took the cash that he had for his order. “So what brings you here in this time of night?” I asked, wondering why such a good looking man would be up and about in this time of night and weather. “Oh just wandering about the city, y’know…” he trailed off. “Oh! My name is Changkyun but you can just call me IM for short, it’s my name for my rapping career,” he spoke gleefully. I smirked a bit, making small talk with him. “Well nice to meet you IM, my name would be (Y/N), but for future reference I like Changkyun better,” I answered swiftly as I poured the iced drink into the cup.

I handed the cold drink to him as I leaned back on the counter, waiting for him to leave so I could close the shop. It was one of those days where I had to finish alone because the rest of my coworkers decided that they had family emergencies to tend to. As soon as I looked up, I saw his slim figure leaning in on one of the soft bean bag chairs that we had set up in our lobby. I let out a small sigh and walked to the register to warn him about our closing time, after all, I didn’t want to be stuck at the shop until an hour after I stopped getting paid, a broke college kid like me didn’t have time to be wasting. 

“Changkyun, y’know we close in about 5 minutes right?” I asked with a hint of tired sarcasm in my tone, just to imbibe the knowledge into his mind. “Yeah, I know, but it’s only just be so if you need to tend to your duties of closing I can watch the shop for a bit for you,” he offered, not giving any explanation as to why he would not leave.

“Or you could just leave?” I chimed in, hoping to not sound so rude. “Sorry if I offended you, I just-- really don’t have the time to be attracting more customers in last minute,” I complained as I gazed at him again. His soft brown locks mixed in with his pale skin, he sure was something. “I mean if you insist, I only came here, looking for somebody to talk with, I’m somewhat new to the city,” he confessed. So he was only looking for company… “Don’t you have anybody else to chat with, or did you really move here alone?” I inquired, wondering more about his situation as seconds ticked away.

I wouldn’t mind sacrificing my beautiful sleep to him either. “Yep, I’m all alone, but with my minimal skills that I have I’ve done this quite a few times, with moving to different cities and a couple of countries as well,” he explained while gazing at me. I felt the urge to get closer to him and a spark of sympathy and adoration for Changkyun. I stripped off my apron and went to sit to the spot next to him as he placed his finished drink down. “I really like it in this city as of right now though, the hotel I’m staying at is pretty up to speed with the latest technology I’d say,” he rambled on. 

“W-wait, you’re staying at a hotel? For how long? Isn’t that expensive?” I bombarded him with questions at that point. “It’s honestly for the best, I’m going to be here for half a year so they gave me a pretty good discount, I figured that renting would be too much of a hassle since all these people ever want here is money and a long contract,” he spoke diligently. “And if I haven’t mentioned before, I’m here because of my career as a photographer but an underground rapper, I’m almost known internationally, been at this for 3 years now persay,” he reminisced. I was in awe by his courageousness. “That’s surely a talent right there,” I mumbled, feeling a wave of drowsiness come over me. I felt his arm snake around my shoulders as I sat there.

I glanced up at the clock, 10:20 PM. Well shit, I guess I’m getting little to no sleep tonight. I shot up in a panic as my cheeks flushed pink. “I should probably clean and get ready to go now. I mean, if you’d really like to you could stay until I finish… How far away is your hotel anyway?” I asked as I rushed behind the counter to sweep and tidy up the place. “I walked here which took about 2 hours since I must’ve stumbled off my original path, so I’d say about 4 miles down that way,” he pointed down the dark misty street. I felt a pang in my heart as a smile arose to my face. “If you’d like… you can stay with me, my apartment is just down a couple blocks and I know my neighbourhood is relatively safe since I really don’t want you walking back in this hour,” I offered, with hesitation.

 I felt his eyes land on my being as he answered. “I mean-- if you’re seriously offering then sure, I wouldn’t mind staying with someone as hardworking and gorgeous as you,” he flirted. “Well then, I’m sure you wouldn’t mind rapping for me either, that’s a part of the deal now,” I laughed half jokingly. He shrugged and replied, “If you want me to,”.

As soon as I put back my tools and materials in the right place, I shut all the lights off which startled Changkyun. I gazed back at him as I made my way towards the door. “Ready to go?” I asked as I swung my bag over my left shoulder. He nodded and let out a small yawn whilst trotting to the door frame. “Fuck… I forgot my jacket at home,” I yelped as the piercing cold wind shattered my pores. I then felt the warmth from Changkyun’s arms enveloping around my body. I let out the faintest smile as he pressed his warm cheeks onto mine. “I don’t get cold easily, I don’t mind repaying you in affection either,” he chuckled. I quickly locked the door behind me and shoved the key in the depths of my drawstring bag. 

As I turned towards the main road to my apartment, I felt Changkyun’s arm snake around my torso. I leaned into his warmth as we trudged through the mist back to my apartment. In this moment, I realized that I didn’t want to let go, no, it felt as if I’ve known him for ages. I felt our hands get closer as we grasped each other for warmth and soon our fingers intertwine in a loving gesture. His soft white hoodie gave me warmth as my shuddering hands soon was filled with life again. Hand in hand I led him up the stairs to my apartment door. I fumbled around in my bag until I managed to get ahold of my keys.

I bursted into the living space, feeling the warmth of my apartment seeping into my skin. I practically slammed the door behind me shut as Changkyun fell on the couch, exhausted and also freezing. “So welcome to my small apartment, as a broke college student I can’t offer you much except for my company and some hot water as of right now,” I chuckled. He turned his neck to gaze at me and let out a genuine smile. 

“I don’t mind, your company is just perfect and enough right now.” I turned my head towards my room, the only room in my apartment not to mention. “You can come in y’know, it’s much cozier in here,” I mentioned. Changkyun shuffled into my bedroom, where I had a simple aesthetic pastel layout with a couch draped in a baby blue covering. “You can spend the night there if you’d like,” I offered. He accepted the offer as he laid his entire being on the couch. The way his locks draped over his relaxing face made me smile, he looked so comfortable. He seemed unbelievably exhausted, even after his coffee. I didn’t notice myself running my fingers through his locks and the small smile that seeped through his resting face.

“Whoops,” I whispered to myself but as I went to back away, I felt a strong arm claw me back into his grasp. I had no choice but to lay down next to the man I practically just met. It felt right, as if it was some sort of destiny that I didn’t believe in or something along those lines. I inhaled his sweet scent and rested my head right next to his. The shallow breathing with his warm arms tangled around my torso was enough to drive my beating heart crazy. I sank deeper into his grasp as he fell into REM sleep. I rested my eyes as I felt my body sinking into his cozyness.

I felt the rays of sunshine hit my arm, making my limb warmer than the rest of my body. I almost jolted awake when but calmed my mind down when I remembered the events that occurred the night before. I sank my head into his shoulder once again as Changkyun remained still with a small grin on his face, happy from what had occurred I guessed. I shifted my weight and he started to move. “Morning beautiful, how was your sleep?” he swooned, acting as if he’d done this a million times.

 I shrugged, “Very comfortable I’d say, you?” I inquired while stretching my arms out. “It was sweet, I liked it,” he confessed softly. I felt his hands intertwine with mine again as he gently kissed me on the cheek. “I guess I should go out looking for company more often hmm, not that I will ever again after this experience,” he chuckled. “Well yeah, I’m probably the best there is,” I boasted with sarcasm. I felt his weight shift onto me as we fell on the couch again, laughing as if we were long time friends and lovers. “(Y/N), you’re really something y’know, thanks for the night, now you don’t mind if I stay here for another 6 months right?”

[dekuinthelake]

I’ve got a pretty deep scar on the ring finger or my right hand that some keen employee I was training asked me about.

When I was about two years old I was chasing my sister, trying to be around her. Mistakenly, she slammed a door and nearly pinched that finger clean off at the tip because she didn’t want me around.

That situation is still relivent to the relationship my sister and I have to this day. Me wanting to be close and her constantly hurting me when I pursue (:

[tidalsun-blog]

“This is not a negotiation.”

                                      FAMILY STARTER SENTENCES.

  Dark brows in stark contrast to bleached and sun soaked hair,   furrow close together,   showing a quickly growing irritation with the other male.     “A NEGOTIATION?”    He’s almost baffled,    “I’m doing this with or without you.  You can sit here if you want, but I’m not gonna stand here, and do nothing, and you… You can’t make me either.”        For Tidus, like his father whether he wants to admit that or not, was never one to turn down someone who needed help.  If only Jecht was willing to offer HIS OWN SON such aid, when he had not been a monster killing thousands.  “Move, Cloud.  Please.”

[lesbiansirius]

i’m moving today and should really get started on my to do list but hhhhhhhhhh anxiety