Apr 17, 2020
What's the theme of my life? What's my character arc? I have to frame it like this bc not to do so is unbearable, to face the bleak emptiness that there is nothing, no overarching plot, it's unbearable. But who am I among this all? I am tired of the humdrum. I am tired of isolation. When do I get to confess my deepest darkest shames and secrets and be cared for despite them? When does the next act begin? When do I get to try to heal?
#its 1 30am and im having a bit of a meltdown#i keep thinking im doing well#but i dont think i am#im functioning#but there's something missing#some crucial piece of heart and life in me#i know quarantine and the uncertainty of my future are making things worse#sitting playig video games all day is bad#but what option do i have?#im overwhelmed by anxiety and my family is unbearable#and it's freezing in my bedroom so i can't hide out there
