#im just.

[mintmatcha]

oh. my god.

a piece i was writing last night. didnt save. im missing so much work.

[falling-rose-petal]

“you have to live with giving up on some of your dreams” “you have to live with random ass people constantly hating you for existing” “you have to find your own reasons to live” is that deadass all we have against having suicidal ideation be so fr.

[callistosam]

it is truly so wild how obsessed spn is with establishing the idea that anytime sam stands up for himself, in literally any way, it ends badly. finally pushing back against your 9th grade bully? he kills himself because of the one thing you said in your defense. you go to college because hunting is slowly killing you? your family disowns you. not wanting to work with your brother after he locks you up for a detox that's basically torture and treats you like a monster for a whole season? you start the apocalypse. your soulless self tries to save his life? your basically-father won’t look at you the same anymore. you tell your brother that you're upset he lied to you and that wouldn't save his life through the usage of your worst fear? he holds it over you for a whole season and it's some of the last words he says to you before he dies. truly you must just sit and take it.

[headcanons-of-sekai]

kanade has memory issues. and also median plural mafuyu

[voidclawing]

@mediclzen said;

“ Xing. “ beckons, low, purring. Nehan’s whole demeanor a calm one that only demands attention in the quiet of the nightsky, swallowed by the woods and branches that surround the perimeter of their spot of escapade — far from stardust town but still within it’s territory, a reserve that the town had power for but was far of prying eyes or the children that would waddle into the clinic not even because something happened but, for reasons Nehan knows; seek comfort, company - play and the wolf’s presence. They all are much like Mugen in that sense. All ducklings in line behind him as their mother hen. Heh Regardless, now interruptions were out the window, if there’s any when all that surround them is but a field of various wild fauna, untouched by mortal hands, only heeding the call of nature, growing in million blossom of colors even the moonlight showcases in their splendor. Two wolves under a dim glow, Nehan atop the other’s lap as good hand idly toys with Seox’s chest belt that hug his frame firmly, his other half below the torso at the cool soil and grass that to anyone else would tickle, but Nehan's skin barely felt the pinprick of grassblades at all. Too distracted by the other's natural warmth that easily beckons the doctor into just lying there and not worry about anything else, even with the comfortable weight of his coat almost looking like a blanket sprawled all over what's visible of his frame. “ Did you need this escapade to free your mind or was it pure, unabashed self indulgence you find more inclined to choose as of late? “ an answer is not necessary, he knew. Both have become more self indulgent, having more escapades Nehan himself had sometimes though how much it impresses himself being able to handle or even find that… he likes it. Even then he’d prefer to bury himself in work until passing put on the desk, be woken up by tiny hands worriedly tugging at his clothes or the faint smell of new foods Mugen has prepared, this? gives Nehan something he hadn’t though necessary; or something he deserved when penance was to restore Stardust town’s victims of the very own drugs he had made in order to survive.

‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍  ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ normally, when one asks a question, they expect that question to be met with at least some semblance of an answer. ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ Nehan's question, however, is met with nothing but silence.

‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ not because the question was ignored. no. not that. ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ rather, because Seox had no need to answer it. they both knew he had no need to answer it. ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ the answer already existed within the inquisition itself, acknowledged by both selfish parties and only brought to the fore by the more coy of the two.

‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ Seox? the guiltiest party? he had no means to defend himself. no sly retort. no means to combat. ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ they both knew what this was. what it always was. what it always ended up being. ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ Seox — Xing's heart was a starving beast that never could seem to be satisfied. day in and day out it was like this, and this evening was no different from any other that he managed to weasel Nehan away so he could get at least a taste of the sweet nectar of affection the days' business had robbed from him.

‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ultimately, the younger wolf's only response to the accusation is to loop an arm around his lower back and give him a gentle squeeze. ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ caught red handed. ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ 

‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍  ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ `` ... I was just thinking about how it wasn't unbearably cold ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍yet. It's probably one of the last few nights it's going to ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍feel this way until the polar sweep hits this island, too.

‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍After that, coming out like this is going to feel like more ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍of a chore for you, if we do it at all. ``

‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ an ear flicks, and perhaps out of bashfulness, his eyes stay glued on nothing but the flickering stars overhead.

‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ `` I couldn't let the chance pass. `` ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍‍‍ ‍‍ ‍‍‍‍‍‍ ‍‍

[lightslop]

IM SO FJCKING TIRED HOW DO PPL HAVE JOBS

[skrunklydoo]

hi welcome back to another episode of jasper making aus about his otp this time it’s just fluff because ive made cole and geo suffer too much (re: prince!geo au, ambrosia wine au)

it’s kinda a modern au, kinda not, they’re all still the same species as in canon + characters still have elemental powers but theyre not important here, oh well

the land of lost things is a bakery managed by gandalaria, the finders’ adoptive mother. fritz and spitz help out occasionally because they’re only kids but her, bonzle and geo primarily work there. bonzle helps gandalaria with baking and geo is usually the cashier (the hoarder is a cat that just hangs around the shop)

cole is a regular and ends up just falling. HEAD OVER HEELS for geo. he is pathetic about it /aff and whenever geo does literally anything nice he likes to ramble about it to the other ninja

oh dw geo is just as in love with cole as he is but he’s slightly more subtle about it (but even then bonzle has had to sit through him rambling about him)

the way that cole confesses his love to geo is by commissioning a custom cake that is a love confession because *james a. janisse voice* that’s nice :3