#im over everything

[blueanpurple]

Is it not enough to suffer through a lab once? must I really relive the trauma in text form via writing a lab report too?

[goodmorninglou]

a family member really just said “i just feel like louis’ really mean for no reason like” because we were watching the video where he jokingly says “liam can i just have a second” and then giggles

okay, when you’re told you’re the worst for ten consecutive years, you can talk

okay, when you’re cajoled into a restrictive media contract that fucks your rights before you’ve turned twenty, you can talk

okay, when you’re constantly forced into a “bad boy” stereotype to fit an image, you can talk

okay, when you’re overworked, overtired, overstressed and underappreciated, you can talk

okay, when you’re plopped in the middle of a media fishbowl with probing, aggressive interviewers and an abundance of fans who nonconsensually touch you, stalk you, and rarely give you a moments peace, you can talk

okay, when paparazzi are so aggressive that they rush at and knock over your band mate at the airport, you can talk

okay, when the person who was meant to be your mentor and guide tells you to stop being yourself, you can talk

okay, when you’re not allowed to be yourself, you can talk

people really out here in 2020 shitting on louis tomlinson without knowing anything about the things he’s been through, the pain he’s endured, or the fact that he used sarcasm and laughter to deflect the attention away from himself because he didn’t feel he was important enough to talk about. and you call yourself a psychology major ?

and then when i defend him, she tries to tell me, “you don’t even know him.”

some people will do anything

[something-tofightfor]

Wednesday (I think)

I just spent the last twenty minutes very seriously contemplating a whole lot of things (life, writing, etc) and have come up with a few very important conclusions. 

- I think I could survive solely on Dunkin’s iced dark roast and maybe the occasional croissant

- People SAY they are picky, but they really aren’t based on some of the things they like and will praise 

- I very seriously don’t understand why I spend so much time researching things for my writing, especially when the results of this research appear in one line or one paragraph or for one thought. 

- if this lockdown has taught me one thing (aside from how to make sourdough) it’s that I really  don’t have time for bullshit or placating people 

- I need to get out of Ohio STAT, or at least away from my city. I haven’t gone more than 30 minutes from my house since February... and that’s unheard of. In a normal year, I’d have been on at least 3 or 4 overnight trips by now. Also, with the exception of ONE person whose pool I’ve used and had over for a cookout, and dropping off masks/picking up dinner for 30 seconds at a time, I haven’t seen any friends in person in just as long.

- This warm weather can blow me. I’ve got no problem with heat and sunlight, but it’s been 90+ and humid for the last 6 days and I’m over it. 

- My hammock replacement’s shipment is delayed until at least 7/14

- There’s still no update on my Billy box. I’m starting to get concerned.

[marvelous-avengers]

I’m trying to find a therapist because I can’t keep trying to talk to my friends about my friends because it’s not working and it doesn’t feel like my feelings are valid and tbh I really just need a therapist

[jondeacon]

okay i think i reached that point where i don't care about the shit im posting, if you need something to be tagged feel free to message me and i will tag them, triggers anything bc i don't want anyone to feel bad

but if people unfollow they unfollow

[philoso-rapture]

Yeah I'm a little bit over all the..... *makes vague hand gestures*

[destroymewithyourlies]

Getting fucked up cause who gives a fuck.

[marvelous-avengers]

i need a fucking vacation and steve rogers to come cuddle me ASAP