being a youtuber has got to be the worst career in terms of absolutely morphing you into an entirely new beast who craves for attention via clicks and views by any means necessary
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being a youtuber has got to be the worst career in terms of absolutely morphing you into an entirely new beast who craves for attention via clicks and views by any means necessary
I saw your post about the nonbinary / trans thing, and I'm so glad I'm not the only one that feels that way. I like the concept of being nonbinary, but I keep finding that I keep trying to fit myself back on the gender binary somewhere. I just sit there thinking that maybe I'm trans??? But then I feel like I don't 100% fit that either...
hey bud, trans and nonbinary aren’t mutually exclusive labels! lots of people (myself included) identify as both. if you think you might be trans then it’s perfectly fine to just identify as that and not have to worry about the specifics of your identity and whether you’re binary/nonbinary for now, or ever for that matter!but otherwise, i think we feel the same. part of me thinks society will never recognise me, so being and existing as a nonbinary person is like this unattainable ideal that i will never truly reach? so i force myself into a box that’s like “i’m mostly male though, don’t worry” solely for the convenience of cis ppl which is. effed up really. and i hate it but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ it is what it is!
i dont really enjoy being in a happy mood for a long time anymore bc i know right after that i'll be a wreck & have some weird crazy mental breakdown it's always been like that & i do not understand at all
I want to do animation I really do but I'm just worried I'll never get better than I am now and going to university would just be a waste of time for everyone and I'd just let them down and myself down by foolishly believing I was good at something I'm not. I like animating, drawing, illustrating and doodling...I really do. Especially when it makes other people happy or just emotional or something... But am I any good? Will it get me anywhere? Is it all just a deluded dream of mine because I can't really do anything else? I just don't know.
Part of me is really looking foreword to school but then there is another part of me that is dreading it because the holidays are up and you'll be talking to me again and I don't know what will happen