why do i feel like childhood!toby would beEVEN MORE of a loverboy than toby just finding reader after becoming a proxy.. like i feel like childhood friend toby would look at reader as like this GOD almost bcuz of them knowing and keeping toby at his somewhat best during the worst years he can no longer even remember.. this kinda toby being the toby that would genuinely probably die all over again if something happened to reader like HE’D NEVER BE THE SAME even if mister bald egghead ( can u tell i hate slenderman ) erased the memories of reader completely toby would constantly feel something just gone and the grief would never be fixed and he just goes INSANE OVERTIME…
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OH MY GODDDDDDDDDD it’s angst day today on the noctiva blog
YOURE SO RIGHT THOUGH… if something ever happened to you there’d just be this void in his chest that you used to fill… getting emotional when he sees things that spark up memories but he doesn’t even know why (like,,, randomly shedding a tear bc he saw your favourite drink at a diner he stopped at and he’s just like ‘what… the hell?) AND THIS WOULD HAPPEN ALL THE TIME
constantly feeling like something’s missing, waking up and feeling absolute dread for a split second when he finds himself alone, but again - not knowing why (because he’s always been alone… right?)
he would very quickly spiral into genuine insanity as he slowly realizes that the life he knows isn’t an accurate portrayal
