CLOSED. | PINNED
TLDR : i’m out of the phase..😬😬 (more info under the ‘keep reading’ cut)
i’m just not into kpop anymore, sorry!
there’s this repeating cycle of mine that’s been going on since like december. i would log in like once a month, tell people that i’m finally dropping a massive fic then i end up dipping. i truly blame my f1 fixation for this because i genuinely do believe if i didn’t watch that one stupid yuki tsunoda tiktok, this blog would still be thriving😭
school was never a problem, i was just super unmotivated to write anything for this blog in particular. i do love writing but my projects have been more passion ones and honestly have no correlation to fanfics. it would be unfair to my followers to have nothing while i’m still writing my own things which why i wanted to archive this blog. i knew this blog was over when i caught myself TWICE changing the names on both of my wonwoo fics to original names because i wanted the project to myself. (i also caught myself writing mcyt fanfics today and i immediately closed my phone and js stared at a wall LMFAOO..)
i’ve also been mentally deteriorating. last summer i got diagnosed with a mental disorder (that i don’t really want to disclose but it’s pretty obvious what it is at this point). it really makes me unmotivated to write my fics and all those times i come back thinking i’m gonna drop a fic, it’s when i think i get better then i just get worse. i’ve figured that taking a step back from social media like tumblr really helps me to build myself.
as i also mention this before, i never wanna bring up his name mainly because i don’t wanna jinx myself again but i have a boyfriend and i love love him very much and he knows i write fanfics Gulps.. but i’m too caught up in my life ever since we started talking soo yeah.. but if u guys ever see me fully come back to this account, it’s probably because we broke up 🤣🤣🤣 (KNOCKING ON WOOD, NOT TRYNA JINX MYSELF😬😬)
i wanna shout out soph / ihankaji for basically being the reason why i started writing lol. if it weren’t for ur 14th bday, i prolly wouldn’t be here rn. i also wanna thank alya / riumori cs if it weren’t for her that revived pftbz, i would’ve stayed verryyy inactive and not even start writing for svt tbh.. PFTBZ4EVA
i will STILL be running k-records since i’m like 33% of it and i have promises i need to fulfill for the network! i’ll be more active on @/coeursainz (where i go by another name, so please refer me to that alias on that blog) if you want to know my wherabouts! i probably ask that you don’t bring up anything related to this blog or just k-pop in general because i’ve made that blog strictly to f1 only lawl… i’m also active on discord (lotusprincess) and instagram (princessalotus—however i’m deactivated due to my mental health, i’ll bring it back in august) if you guys wanna keep it touch with me :)
thank you for all the amazing memories i’ve made on this blog and for all the support on my works. i hope to come back better, happier, and motivated!
— himewonu













