#creelby

[can-of-pringles]

They're wearing matching sweaters 🥰

[can-of-pringles]

My two favorite Broadway ships but I'm cooked because they're both doomed

[grimmgrinninggirl]

Henry wake up club

Wtf Henry stop sleeping

[badwolfgirliie]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

creelby wip I posted just now…

[blackwallgateway]

excerpt from ch2 of my st5 rewrite !!

we’re addressing the elephant

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[stxrfiish]

ik everyone is still hung up on byler but is anyone else still hung up on creelby. my loves

[scarlettmystery59]

Twin!

[queenxofthescarletphoenixes]

Well shit apparently I made this post twice and never ended up post it either times 😭✌️(for anyone who is wondering(most likely because you didn’t see the post I just made) this was an old post I made when I just decided to leave the Henry fandom on Tumblr I still like fanart sometimes and I’m keeping up with one of my old mutuals it just seems unfair to my past self to let her thoughts stay trapped in limbo forever, so I’m going to post this because why not(I promise I’m not mad at anyone) I also did some slight editing to this post because I genuinely was and still am really bad at talking in a manner that makes sense lol and while part of the reason I stopped being part of this community WAS because of everything that was going on I also just sort of lost my special interest…ADHD, you know how it is 😭✌️

I’m finally doing what I should have done before: leaving the Tumblr Henry Creel community, at least temporarily(not that anyone will miss me…)

I wasn’t actually in the Henry Creel discord server that people have been talking about lately. I’m not allowed to have discord. technically I’m not even allowed to have Tumblr. The reason I joined was because my friends were pestering me to do it, and I knew there were a lot of cool nerdy people who made awesome theories and fanart and I thought I could The meet some really cool Henry fans and I thought maybe we could become a loyal community the way me and my friends on A03 or Pinterest are and that I could have another place to upload my art.

The Henry fandom had become my safe space. It made me feel alive when I had been struggling with my mental health. I joined Archive of Our Own and made some loyal First Shadow friends. Some of them were on Pinterest as well where I made my TFS related pins, and some of my online friends came in the form of Pinterest mutuals. I promised my friends I would upload the fics that I would write late into the night, would comment on their fics and it felt as if we had each other’s backs. It’s not that what I had was satisfying, but I was genuinely curious what the Tumblr Henry community was like. I found some of your accounts before even signing up, and in a way, I simply spectated them from afar.

(Edit: not in a creepy way I would simply read posts without actually having an account )That wasn’t until my friend convinced me to stop putting it off and just make an account already(they weren’t that rude of course).

And so I did..

things were cool at first. sure, it was a little strange because I was new to this platform ,but it wasn’t long before my screen time was telling me that Tumblr was one of my most used sites. I soaked up every piece of fanart and became a re-blogging champion and just enjoyed my time on Tumbler…

And then I found out about the drama. Transphobia. Pedophile allegations. One of the first shadow fans I looked up to the most was doing things that felt like a betrayal of my trust and admiration.

(Edit: FYI, I was not talking about James here, but I was talking about Elliot)

I talked to the person who was being targeted-one of the coolest TFS users on Tumblr frfr-and despite not liking the ship, everyone was complaining about, took his side because he did NOT deserve all of that. Just reading about all of this made me feel sick. Made me start to question my judgment on who was a cool person online

(Edit: I’m still not very good at distinguishing the good users from the bad users, which is why I only really talk to one person from this fandom anymore)

The user(Edit: I was still talking about Elliot here) apparently targeted new fans and because I was a newer fan I felt personally betrayed, because I genuinely LOOKED UP TO THIS PERSON. I felt really bad. So I tried to just not talk to him and get over it, although I felt ashamed to be a member of my favorite ship.

Then I read some things that made me question if my favorite ship was in fact toxic and if I should even ship it, it had the same mental and emotional vibe of questioning your religion-I would know- and I didn’t like that. (edit: NOW I was talking about James, I read a lot of his character analysis and the such which made me genuinely wonder if I was a bad person for shipping Creelby… no I’m not mad at James by the way, not for that anyway and I still can’t believe people called him racist because as a black person myself I could totally see where he was coming from)

I also sadly met a couple genuine creeps who started to direct message me and tell me to go to suspicious websites,(I didn’t) video call them(I didn’t), telling me that I was “the kind of person that you would like“, spamming me with my own posts, and genuinely make me uncomfortable and I ended up seeing things I NEVER wanted to see.

(Edit: I didn’t know it back then but what I was talking about here. I’m pretty sure we’re just bots, and I found some of those accounts that are full of pictures of naked men 😭 this specifically had nothing to do with the first shadow fandom)

I confessed to my mom that same day and she told me not to be on the site anymore, but I genuinely thought if I just ignored the creeps it would be fine, and besides, there were some people who had art ideas that I had screenshot it and wanted to draw and post for them.

((Edit: by “confessed to my mom” I simply meant I told her about the bot accounts that back then I didn’t know were bots(I’m still not sure, that’s genuinely a guess) therefore by default I had to tell her I got Tumblr, but she told me to stop using it and genuinely thought it was a dating site(pretty sure she got it confused with Tinder))

Then I saw the first post about the discord drama.(James’ version(Edit: meant his post about it)I’m genuinely so disappointed in my fandom right now. And seeing ANOTHER post about that same drama, this is the final straw for me. The last.

i’m tired of my safe place being invaded. I’m tired of questioning if my own ship is okay. I’m tired of not knowing which users I can trust. I’m tired of wondering if any creeps will try to message me again.

(Edit: it’s OK kiddo. We’ve learned our lesson and at this point if somebody randomly DMs us, we simply look at what’s on their account and if there’s anything icky, then we just block and report (we do this with new followers too ))

I’m tired of trying to defend a user I think is really cool but at the same time disproving his ship but at the same time not wanting to tell him that I disapprove of it or he’ll think that I am not defending him anymore, even though I am.

((Edit: I was once again talking about James. I was afraid that if he knew that I didn’t like BRENNERY(Brenner x Henry) then he suddenly wouldn’t like me and think I was taking the other side and accusing him of being a bad person, even though I wasn’t doing that, I just simply didn’t like his ship… I was just kind of scared because I’m not sure how well people on the Internet, actually like me and what will make them not want to be friends anymore, as well as genuinely really not wanting to come off as be believing his accusers ))

I’m tired of wondering if one of my Pinterest friends is secretly a jerk but I haven’t bothered to ask him because I don’t know if I want to know more.

(Edit: i’m not going to call this former friend out unless specifically asked, we don’t talk anymore, but I’m pretty sure I invited him to my giant first shadow board on Pinterest)

I’m going to read about the Lord of the flies drama because one of our ex people apparently did even MORE bad stuff and even though I’m not in that fandom, I feel like I should know.

I don’t know if I’m leaving Tumblr(I didn’t)leaving Stranger Things(Edit: I did briefly because my special interest wore off, but I’m thinking about returning)leaving the Henry fandom(Edit: this is what I ended up actually doing, more or less) I think I’m just leaving the Henry Tumblr fandom. It probably won’t be forever. But I want you to know that if one of your mutuals unfollowed you and you don’t know why, just know that I’m not individually mad at you. I just don’t know who I can trust anymore so it’s better to just stop talking to all of you and just leave before I make anyone mad at me because I’ve already made people mad at me for not understanding what’s going on and genuinely wanting to know what these people are like before I follow them because I can’t really trust anybody anymore. I really am sorry. I know not every Apple is bad and not every egg is rotten but if you can’t tell the good food from the bad food it’s safer for not to eat any of it because you might get sick.(Edit: did I low-key eat with this line? I feel like with this line. On the other hand, starving to death isn’t ideal either though…..)

James in specific: I’m going to Unfollow you but know that IN NO WAY DO I THINK YOU ARE THE CREEP PEOPLE SAY YOU ARE I SIMPLY DON’T WANT TO BE CHOOSING FAVORITES(Edit: I kind of just wanted to be thorough with cutting my ties from the fandom I hope you understand 🥲 I wasn’t mad at all) SO I AM GOING TO UNFOLLOW YOU TOO BUT I STILL GENUINELY LIKE YOU AND THINK YOU ARE A TRUSTWORTHY PERSON EVEN THOUGH I DON’T LIKE BRENNERY OKAY? IT MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE, BUT YOU GET TO CHOOSE WHAT YOU SHIP AND I DON’T, AND I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST WITH YOUR BRENNERY COMMUNITY AND I IN NO WAY THINK YOU ARE A BAD PERSON.

goodbye people . Dream on, dreamers. 💖