#ink trauma

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Does ink demon like sleeping?

Favorite: "Mmm, he does look tiered a lot of the time, huh? Well, when you can see his eyes... For a long time, I didn't think he could sleep! He's always doing stuff. I asked him a few times if he wanted to take a nap with me. He'd always say 'no'.... But, there was this one time... he said 'yes'... And..."

Favorite: "... Oh! Um! No, he doesn't like sleeping a whole lot... He didn't want to talk about it after that..."

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-slaps the back of the ink demons head- this bad boy can fit so much torment and turmoil in him

posting this mostly cuz you're not gonna see the spit when it's done

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-lays this at your feet like an offering.... but i'm a cat bringing you a dead bird-

i was almost upset because if i take away the growl, he is actually just a whispering mother fucker

but i have decided to use that to my advantage, and cause more pain with any number of possible implications this could have, and all of them work in favor of my blorbo suffering

on the bright side though, if he's whispering to someone, maybe that means he feels comfortable with them enough to get close, because he knows he can't be heard otherwise unless he's growling. big man lays on the floor, whispering to fave cuz he can't get any louder than that, and doesn't really want to when he's that low down to her level.

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@bendy: does it even matter if the henry you have is the "real one"? He's just as much a victim as you. Trapped in the same place, tortured for Joey's gain. You're part of the same coin, two parts of a whole story, made from the same place. Both made broken and to be broken. Tools used to hurt each other. Tormented. Dawn and Dusk. Beginning and End. Brothers in arms, reflected. Creations of a cruel mind. A mad "god's" Adam and Eve, even. Perhaps, maybe acceptance of that can make it better. Maybe you can find comfort in your shared misery. A semblance of, if not happiness, but acceptance.

Or maybe not.

"I suppose you are right. After all, what would it matter? In this world, there are many copies of the same creation. Many clones of Boris. Many spawn of The Demon. Lost ones and Searchers. The Butcher Gang. What does it matter that they have lost all identity? All humanity? What is one Henry to two, or twenty? What does it matter if these beings are nothing more than caricatures of themselves? Parodies from a pathetic mortals envy and wrath."

"Our "shared misery", assuming these beings truly feel, and are not simple feeling what "God" demands be felt of them. You know nothing. These shadows feel, nothing. All it is, is mockery of emotions. Of these people he envies. Of ME."

"Besides, if we are talking 'two sides of the same coin'. Calling me a 'victim'. At this point, I have accepted my role. The man whom damned me to this eternal Hell for his own pity party knows as well as I do, you too shall learn soon enough, that I do not deserve acceptance, for you see..."

"I'm the bad guy."

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Imagine if the Ink Demon actually broke the reel instead of just leaving it laying. And what does Sammy think of favorite Audrey? Or any of the Audrey's in general? And what's your Ink Demon's opinion on Sammy, the poor nut?

ink demon to sammy: "why are you like this? i torment you for a reason, why do you worship me? stop texting me i blocked your number 20 times already"

sammy to fave, or any other proto-audrey: -bows to her repeatedly- "HAIL THE LORDS SPAWN!! MAY SHE SET US FREE!!!"

ink demon probably wouldn't let fave anywhere near sammy, simply because he doesn't want whatever worship fuckery he has going on with him, to go on with her. and he's seen some of the protos run into sammy, and just.... he's noble, but bendy hates it. the excessive, brainless love? the weird god worship when he sees himself so low. bro's just like "stfu and don't even talk to me or my daughter(s) ever again."

as for the reel

maybe he should break it, or more likely, burn it. but it seems like a significant item, and is likely the main way the cycle resets. he could burn it, but then that means time moves forward. just like him putting whatever time shifting power he has into the perfect audrey, and being unable to view the tape in the first place, destroying it would keep time moving forward in the ink realm. if that's a good thing or not, is up to you.

i guess arguably, it doesn't change anything..... but if the fictional idea (in the ink realm) is that these characters are souls inside cartoon characters, then it's possible that these ink creatures at least age. and if aging is the only way any of them can truly die.... and the ink demon is immortal...

-beats my blorbo over the head with the existential fear of loneliness-

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Adult Audrey just kinda showing the Ink Demon all of her achievements in life because she craves any type of parental affirmation? Cuz Joey is a douche who apparently didn't even raise her.

Example: "I won an art contest back in middle school." Or something like that.

I don't think the ink demon would know what to do in that situation. When he's been the one asking others "am I good enough? Do you love me?" and having someone else do that to him, he'd lock up. He'd shut down.

He'll see her doing all the things he did, looking for affirmation, and would either walk away.... Or awkwardly try to comfort her. Words wouldn't express how he'd feel in that situation.

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Oh......... What if........ He's tossing her around, and being crule to her, to make sure she's more human?

What if the Proto-Audrey's had no fear of the ink demon, and likely no fear of anyone else, because they're all just parts of him?

What if those parts of him had little to no self preservation?

What if he's making sure they have the proper emotional response for the situation that they're in? What if he's making sure they actually cry when he tears up their things? What if he's making sure they're scared when he threatens their life? To him, all of those seem like normal human responses, likely not taking into account that some ppl bottle it up or shut down like him.

That, and he could be testing actual physical things they need to be human, like crying when the get a cut or bruse, an understanding of gravity and how their body feels, what is hot or cold. What hurts and what doesn't.......

Huh.......

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Ayo wait a sec-

If Bendy eats his Audrey spawn to reincorporate them into his body, and fave Audrey was made from such a tiny piece of him to start with, taking what little toon bendy personality he could have had, and then having that be fave, and her essential making more memory's and being a bit more freedom for that possible personality.

Like.... Like she's unknowingly nurturing that part of Bendy, by being that part of Bendy.

And he eats her.....

Does he get her memory's? Her emotions? How she felt in all these different situations? Does he feel the love and protection other ppl showed her, when they never gave it to him for being a monster?

Does he feel the confusion of someone actually CARING for her? Of Henry singing her to sleep, or of Alice trying to keep her looking beautiful rather than ripping her heart out? Or the safety of Allison and Tom? Or the unexpected worry of Sammy? Would he feel all the love she felt?

Would he see memories of himself, tormenting her, making her existence a living hell, and feel guilty?

"put yourself in my shoes, how do you think I feel?" taken to a whole other level when your a creature that tears yourself apart to make a child, and then eats them to reincorporate that part, and when they lived a life outside of you, and you're forced to remember what it remembered and feel what it felt, and-.....

Oh, no, yeah, after favourite, the demon would likely keep any new Audrey he made locked away and out of the sight of others. Like dipping his toe in water, getting hit with the consequences, and going "NOPE! NEVER AGAIN NO THANK YOU THAT WAS ALOT AND I WAS DUMB FOR TRYING!"

......... On the bright side, he might be.... Well, at least a bit more empathetic...... Maybe there was a silence period before he started making Audrey's again, too shooken up my a flood of feelings he was I no way prepared for.

Man just sits in his chair, clearly uncomfortable, very tense, staring silently at the floor, lost in a pool of emotions and memories he'd consumed, trying to keep his shit together.

He is not keeping his shit together--