Aug 23, 2017
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Hong Jisoo [x]
marisa means “of the sea”
My priorities are mixed up. I get caught up in the silly little life you lead that my adventurous spirit is trapped in again that long thought had escaped. Well no more I will work to success and wont fail. I will work out and look good, I will come out to my family and be comfortable with my self. While you look for your fake success I will be the better person
HAHAHA okaaay
Well you gotta get your inner diva on sometimes.
So lately I have been working on myself =)
(Totally wrote a whole post out only to accidentally have backspaced and deleted it in a minute! Grrr!)
All this time I realized in my life I have been "what if ing" and "what would have happened if I had." I never realized it until quite recently. Life hasn't been the best to me lately. I recently dropped out of fashion school. I have no real job. My relationship with my boyfriend and future options made its way back into my life. So much of life was confusing between what I needed to do and what I could do. I felt that the things I wanted were failing me. I started focusing so much on fixing the problems that I didn't think to fix me. I have always depended on others for self worth I realized. I have depended on the things in my life to give me self worth. When my break through was about a couple of days ago. Here's the list of things I need to change asap! Maybe some of it can help you too! This is the time to start making things happen. I want to be fit! I am done looking at girls being like I wish/want to look like that.I have this life it's time to be what it is I want to be. I need to stop waiting and actually work! So I started stretching. Slowly, the old ballet legs got working and muscles and body are starting to feel bendable and back to the way they were! Secondly, there will be no more of depending on guys to make me feel beautiful. By me making myself fit I have control over whether or not I think I look good. but I'd rather be pretty cause I see it for real's in me. I don't need to depend on a guy telling me I am pretty to feel/believe I am pretty. I have control over how I feel about me! Guys can appreciate it and tell me that.lol But I don't need to need their approval! No more!
I need to depend on me for my own happiness! Since I am not working I do have a tendency to be lonely and bored. So I have been looking for fun and affirmation on my life from guys and even some friends. Overtime I have really come to expect that. To feel better about me when people say good things. I have been that girl that looks for attention and approval from guys. That's dumb. There is no way that is healthy. I need to be confident and happy because I cause that. I don't need any affirmation over being a certain way. So...
I need to do things I like. I don't need to race to make a guy happy so he'll want to be with me. I need to be happy with just myself. So I don't need a guy for that in my life. I don't care if a guy doesn't understand anymore. If I want to be everything pink. Too bad. Pink nail polish and girly things make me happy! Along with fairy tale movies and expensive perfume. I love black and white movies and that whole era. I love cats not dogs. I happen to love some video games not cause it makes me a cool girl but because I actually enjoy it like Resident Evil, Left for Dead, and Metal Gear. I love sewing and talking about it. Stich stich stich! Beading, feathers, and makeup. Yes, these things make me happy! I will focus more on these things. I want to cook wonderful things. I am not a scared girl. I want to take chances! If I want to listen to oldies for hours. I WILL ;)
The point is my life is passing by. When I was 16 I thought when I grow up I want to be a fashion designer and do this and that. Well, I am 22 now and my ideas now have to be different. I am grown up! I want to be the ideal adult so someday when I have kids I can show them the ways. Like mom did this! She built her fashion and makeup business! I want to be the ideal adult so that I will be ready to bring them into a very cool world were any dream is possible. xoxo "Some of us are becoming the men we wanted to marry-Gloria Steinem"
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You are a member. I've been in this and doing something bigger than you for 3 years. And you have the gall to prove me that I'm not a leader? Better check yourself before you fucking wreck yourself, hun.