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Insomnia has become a late night friend.

We silently chatter over plans to be made and odd feelings in my body that hold no weight in the light of day.

We dissect the invisible meaning between words and spaces where sleep used to call my name.

We share a giggle or two over the days antics and consider further potential antics for when the sun rises.

An ever present friend and companion, and yet I wish I could let it go.

If it were that easy, I would not still have the insomnia.

Perhaps I need to handle it as a shadow of self, give it a secret name, invite it to tea, and honor it with a notebook of all the things it whispers to me.

Stay present. Something is coming. Be ready. Catch the emergency before it emerges. Something is unsafe. Stay present.

Would it help or hurt to record the urges of my neither-brain for the review of my fully conscious self?

I won’t know until I try it out.

#chatting on tumblr #insomnia blues #i want to see you be brave

Go get him sweetie!

#the boy is powerful #no one can tell me otherwise #fe:heroes #takumi #also yes it's almost three am over here #can't sleeeeep #insomnia blues

Hello internet.

I’m on my way to work right now. Took the bus(es) because I don’t have a car. Well, I have one but it’s too old it doesn’t run anymore. And it’s more than likely that getting it fixed is gonna cost more than I spent to buy it in the first place. And besides that, I still don’t have a licence to drive on my own. So that sucks, but, anyway, I’ve been managing to live and do things that need to be done, go to places that need going to. But damn it would totally be so much better if I could drive.

Anyway, I’m hoping for this day to be good. I’m a full-time student and only work on weekends (both Saturday and Sunday) but the anxiety I get about work is just insane. It’s at its peak on the Friday afternoon/night. It’s irrational sometimes, even. So like I said, I hope today is good. Sending all the positive energy/vibes I can muster to the universe so that I attract the same thing back.. or at least trying to.

I had coffee this morning though, against my better judgment. My anxiety didn’t let me have much sleep last night so, here I am, functioning with only 4 hours of sleep. The other 4 hours of supposed sleep were spent partially trying to sleep and mostly on my phone jumping from video to video on Facebook or listening to music or meditating with Calm. See I even tried. But no. My brain only started to want to settle down in the last 20 minutes before my alarm was supposed to go off, so, tough shit.

It’s only 8 hours though, so, soon enough I’ll be at home, in bed, back on my phone. 🤙🏼

#work confessions #insomnia blues #sleepless #coffee #work #commuter diaries

So tired...last night my brain decided at bed time it really wanted to focus on the impermanence of everything and how everything I love will eventually die or be destroyed.

Thanks brain, that was super helpful.

#insomnia blues #brains are occasionally stupid #and by occasionally I mean 'more often than not'

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plastic tree - insomnia blues hakusei (20151223)

#insomnia blues #plastic tree #hakusei

Big Thoughts wait till I’m almost asleep to spring up

Is being rendered invisible by the gender binary a privilege when it can make you safer than being made hypervisable like other trans folks or is it all terrible all the way down and nobody wins

Whereas when I’m awake

Tacos and burgers and wraps can definitely be categorized as sandwiches bc it’s food inside a bready food - don’t let the anti sandwich lobby win

#not gay as in happy but queer as in tired and sleepless #the anti sandwich lobby #insomnia blues #can't sleep won't sleep

Heard a thousand ticks of the clock in one night

#Harlem howls #insomnia blues

Anthem for the Lonesome:

Operator, are you there?

Long since have the toll-free hours receded with the sun

And the allegorical bedroom dispels its nightly flouts

Pitch black, save for the screen of your outdated phone

The humdrum monotone of an automaton

Is the closest you have to a semblance of company;

Only child on a twin-sized mattress

Clutching the headrest for immediate comfort

Practicing osculations as if they were your lover

First a peck, then full lips, harder, more passionate

Imaginary chemical secretions: unfair moans

Your cheeks aflush with crimson, for you are hot and bothered

From an intense makeout session with your pillow

Insomniatic musings on your unenclosed fingers

Present gaps, no stamps, envelope lips sealed with no kiss

And shame, the post office is closed at this hour

But the doors to your stead are wide open, as are your eyes

You’ve won every staring match with the ceiling

Yet feel no more the victor than when the sun took its victory lap

Eight hours a night is no realistic model for our kind

For the realm of hands in motion apply only

To objects that hang on the wall

But we hang from the ceiling

Tightly taut noose fashioned from your sleeping mask

Ante-Meridian woes won’t wash away

Until the Sandman absolves you of your thoughts

Hum the dial tone once more so the operator knows

You’ll be on hold until you are held.

#poetry #jay knows the song all too well #insomnia blues