Vervalicious

Life, interests, motivations, and everything under the good old sun.

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I’m tired from work but I’m quite relieved that another weekend is over. I’m always glad to have made it through every time, every Sunday night. To have made it through another weekend of stressful work.

Tomorrow I’m gonna have to face uni again; going back from 2 weeks of mid-semester “break”. But it should be fine. I should be fine, I mean I actually enjoy/prefer uni over work. I wish I just had to go to uni and not work. Or that I could just already work full time and not have to do both of those things at the same time anymore. I study full time Monday-Friday and work Saturday-Sunday so I rarely get a day off.

I might have to study for the mini quiz we’re gonna be having tomorrow morning at 9am. It’s gonna be like a good “welcome back!”, the fact that off the bat, before anything else, we’re having a quiz. Fun.

Anyway, I grumble too much. It’s all gonna be fine and good.

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Hello again internet.

So I made it through the day, and somehow the work day/shift finished. But man was it stressful, busy, and just downright shitty.

And irate yelling customers don’t help at all! I mean the pharmacy is stressful enough without people revealing their true disgusting natures to you at the counter!

And yet!

I swear this is why I dread Saturdays.

Tomorrow is another day which I sure HOPE is way better than today was.

I don’t wanna be such a weakling but I’m this close 👌🏽 to quitting my job.

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Hello internet.

I’m on my way to work right now. Took the bus(es) because I don’t have a car. Well, I have one but it’s too old it doesn’t run anymore. And it’s more than likely that getting it fixed is gonna cost more than I spent to buy it in the first place. And besides that, I still don’t have a licence to drive on my own. So that sucks, but, anyway, I’ve been managing to live and do things that need to be done, go to places that need going to. But damn it would totally be so much better if I could drive.

Anyway, I’m hoping for this day to be good. I’m a full-time student and only work on weekends (both Saturday and Sunday) but the anxiety I get about work is just insane. It’s at its peak on the Friday afternoon/night. It’s irrational sometimes, even. So like I said, I hope today is good. Sending all the positive energy/vibes I can muster to the universe so that I attract the same thing back.. or at least trying to.

I had coffee this morning though, against my better judgment. My anxiety didn’t let me have much sleep last night so, here I am, functioning with only 4 hours of sleep. The other 4 hours of supposed sleep were spent partially trying to sleep and mostly on my phone jumping from video to video on Facebook or listening to music or meditating with Calm. See I even tried. But no. My brain only started to want to settle down in the last 20 minutes before my alarm was supposed to go off, so, tough shit.

It’s only 8 hours though, so, soon enough I’ll be at home, in bed, back on my phone. 🤙🏼

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another attempt at internet honesty and sharing under the blanket of anonymity.

let’s see if I can actually pull it off this time.