#insomnia ramblings

[brightlotusmoon]

With that post about the unemployed friend and the benefits, I got to thinking. In my tags I had said 'being on ssdi feels similar except I'm unreliable'

@diploglottis messaged me with this:

"But you kind of are full time employed dealing with disability and health issues which at times are probably more like working full time on-call or full time shift work due to not really having a schedule of when things are going to flare up?"

And it's got me Pondering at two in the morning.

Getting a part time job while on SSDI gets tricky, because they'll want to track everything. Plus... the flare ups at inconvenient times. I am deeply terrified that the Trump administration will come after SSDI and my monthly payments will be cut. That terror is fueling a mild paranoia. I try not to think about it.

Anxiety shows up again and leans against my shoulder making snide comments about how nobody will hire me with my unreliability and I won't be able to get income in any form and I'll ruin my own life or something. And then I consider that this feeling must be very common these days. Gods, I need to find community again.

[scary-friend]

”dogs shouldn’t be on the bed”

He’s only gonna be here for like 13 years, and you’re gonna deprive him on the joys and comforts of a bed? Are you a monster? Some kind of evil villain?

He is your companion and yet you don’t trust him to protect you from the beasts that lurk in your room at night?

I can sleep with no blanket and feel safe from the bed demons. Wanna know why? DOG.

Don’t even TALK to me if you don’t trust your pet on the bed. This is my ride or die. Sorry you don’t think highly of your dog.

[headphonesgal]

for his birthday, Kaitou KID is gifted a custom Agasa-made monocle from tantei-kun. like Conan's criminal tracking glasses, the monocle has a radar, night vision and zoom. the Phantom Thief accepts the present without questions, tracker-embedded-in-charm included. (the thief and detective's relationship is complicated, they like to pretend they obviously are strangers and certainly don't care about each other - please don't ask.)

when KID's tracker suddenly blips out on a high stakes heist, Shinichi almost has a heart attack. (of course he rarely ever checks on KID through his personal tracker, it had to coincidentally happen just then!) it turns out Kaito simply forgot to charge his monocle. once he is safe at home, he gets an earful (and a tearful hug) from his favorite detective. he never forgets to replace the batteries again.

years later, after the infamous thief's retirement, Kaito gifts the same lucky charm back to Shinichi (along with a kiss). he doesn't need to keep any trackers to feel protected - after all, he is not planning to leave his husband's side anytime soon.

[sea-shelly]

Hmmm I don't mind [redacted] during races but his whole...persona? personality? on social media and team marketing stuff is off-putting. he gives very bad vibes

[wittgensteining]

Kant talks a lot about common sense for a person that has none at all

[litaloni]

Horribly terribly awake at 3am after Child woke me up for a cup of water and a snuggle (bless himb)

Want to go upstairs but Old Man is up there and I don't want to have my ass ridden about my insomnia as if it's a conscious choice I'm making

Want to write story but I am cursed so I know if I start writing everyone in the house will immediately wake up

Maybe I'll take the doggie and go for a night walk instead. I have a head lamp

On that note, remember this?

Those were the days

[monstarparker]

Fuck. I forgot about Grey’s birthday yesterday

Happy birthday, bitch

[baalzie]

So, if Kento starts his workday at 10 am and finishes at 6 pm, that means he has an 8 hour shift BUT, assuming he has 1 hr of lunch time, that means he actually works 7 hours. Which to me is heaven on earth.

Working 7 hours is the bear minimum you deserve bbgirl, my beautiful prince you should be working 4 hours and still be paid enough to afford 10 trips to Malaysia in 6 months 😭😭😭

Nanami nation is still alive and well. If Jesus resurrected why can't my beautiful husband do it too before the end of the manga.