#institution tw

[uncanny-tranny]

I sincerely believe that institutionalization is a deterrent for healing. The state of many institutions is incapable of handling people in acute need, and more often than not, we are traumatized from institutionalization because of this reality.

[ice-block]

Story time bc I just saw a post about underground tunnels and that reminded me of the underground tunnels that run under my town

So a long time ago (anywhere between the 20’s and the 40’s idk) my town had a mental institution that despite still doing some real messed up practices from what I’ve been told was at least founded on the idea of being more humane than most institutions of the time? Anyway this hospital grounds had its own farm and like basically an entire community built around the forest in an area that is now public forest trails and a Real Hospital™️ if you go off trail you can still find ruins of old buildings and there are still broken down houses all over the property from this time (although large sections have been restored in recent years and made into a hipster shopping market)

The non restored buildings are locked up bc they have asbesdos but that doesn’t stop people from going anyway, also a couple times a year tours are led but only small groups are allowed and you have to be guided in areas that are not gonna collapse, one of these areas is the tunnels.

There is probably a map somewhere of where exactly these tunnels run, but they stretch really far they go for miles and if you lift certain floor panels at one of the highschools they connect under the floor

[lotusofhope]

Im so fucking glad I went back to the hospital. I was a little scared of being comitted (I didn't, nor was I really close to being comitted) but it would have been worth it ... God the time with therapy is so helpful every day.

I know some people are afraid of being institutionalized (and rightfully so, I got extremely lucky with the recommendation on hospitals and I drive an hour both ways), *and* the right programs can really help people.

I hope SE therapy becomes more availbe in the future. Everyone that I've talked to who has gone thru the therapy gauntlet has tried like EMDR (which is also good stuff) but SE is something I can do at home and it just helps so much.

[sitcomwatcher]

like the other ppl at the hospital taught me card games and colored with me and gave me compliments constantly and they literally cheered for me when i got out they were all so nice but the fucking nurses and techs gave not one solid shit about us and there was only 1 doctor for everyone there so i had to wait up all night until midnight before he could see me and also since i’m a veggo i didn’t get to eat a meal while i was there because they kept ignoring the food forms that they LEFT OUT FOR US what the fuck how do u care so little about ur job ugh

[sitcomwatcher]

tbh when i went to the mental hospital i was like “lol this is gonna be nothing like the movies” but it motherfuckin was like the fuckin VIBE............ugh.....the staff had this freakin scary vIBE....the patients were all real nice and stuff but the fucking STAFF ugh 

[cubone-i-guess]

Okay but the most clever and useful thing I ever thought of was deciding "Whitestone Institute" is the perf subtle (and for me, much less upsetting) phrase for talking about institutionalization. Literally you only need to crack a joke about off-white cinder block walls once and suddenly! You and your friends can talk about how fucked up you all are with up to 70% less panic attacks AND without the NTs ever cottoning on its great

[whirling-ghost]

There's a report on TV about horrible abuse in a care home and even the "good practices" are making me feel sick.

Fuck, they're commenting on a woman's stims and she's got some of the same ones as me. This is just too personal. I know we're not alike and it's on the other side of the country but ugh. 

"She's mute, she can't communicate". FUCK OFF

[unhappycasper]

I'm going to take a break from tumblr for a while. My mental health is rapidly decreasing and I'm involuntarily refusing any medication taken orally (meaning I'm puking it back up). I am going in for a voluntary hold tonight but I can't say for how long I'll be there, seeing as they might 5150 me. So this is a heads up that I may be inactive for a while.