#interior thoughts

[hannyaexist]

Kids & me

I don't like little kids. I don't. But for some weird reason I'm a magnet for children, if there is a child in a space of 20ft around me, they would in someway go for me or to me (not sure which one is correct, please tell me).

And I usually look at them and smile bc they are kids (and their parents would totally hate me and send their bad energies on my way or with my luck one of them would have my life in their hands and would decide to let me die for that time I didn't smile to his child) or make funny faces bc that makes them smile, and a happy children is better than a sad or bored one. Anyway, here some stories:

Once a child ran to me, he hugged my leg and went: save me from the ogre!

Another time a little girl saw me and yelled at her mom: mommy I want her!! (I gotta say, that time my hair was magenta) bought it to me!

Once a pretty little girl saw me and decided I was the chosen one and extended her pretty tiny hands to me and started jumping in her dad's arms, his dad asked me if I could hold her for a moment and I told him "I don't know how to hold a baby" (I was 13!) And that's how I learn how to hold a baby.

The little brother of a school friend decided he would only eat if I was there with him.

I was in the bus sat, a mother and her child where in front of me and the kid almost jumped on me, I offered the mother to sit but ended holding the baby till their stop.

Also I was in a store once and the kid asked his mom for a stuffed animal, when she said no, he looked at me and proceeded to threw it to me! And I was like: wtf? (Her mom went and apologize, I'm sorry for her, her daughter is a brat)

In highschool my teacher took his daughter to my class, some of my classmates (girls and boys) got awe by her and I got to be the chosen one again! She talked to me for the whole 2 hours of the class about what she liked and what not, how she ate her vegetables and stuff. I totally lost the class, but my teacher was so greatful bc I distracted her daughter while she worked.

I've got to say, I was with this kid from 5 minutes to 2 whole hours and when they were gone, I was so tired!! My energy went down like a diver! And I've thought "I'm never gonna have kids!!" But the other day, I saw a video with Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles talking about his children and my mom told me about the thinks my siblings I did being kids, and she lighted up, about stupid stuff we did. And for the first time in forever ( pun intended), I wanted to have a child... THEN I remembered how it has been live with my little sister and it just Passed away.

[padrespaleale]

Thoughts on a Saturday

Thoughts on a Saturday

There is that sense of being outside not part of the inner circle always sitting on the periphery looking in while looking out never feeling left out living in the imagination of what is wrought in my mind walking worlds that don’t exist breaking free from the bonds of reality that seek to control this wayward soul.

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[skrimpsapphic]

rant about sexuality and what not

i hate not being able to confidently identify as one thing, like i don’t feel fully comfortable with just lesbian, bisexual, or queer and like lesbian is the least comfortable of the labels but makes the most sense based on my actions and how other perceive me, but thats not really a good way to pick an identity is it? and like queer makes the most sense for my vague and fluid sexuality because then i don’t have to repeatedly change my label for how i am feeling, but like i have very strong internal ties to the bi community and shared experiences with the bi community that i don’t just wanna drop altogether... i dunno they’ve each got their pros and cons im not about to pick one right now, or ever really... just some thoughts

[skrimpsapphic]

I just love bi girls on tv. more of those pls. a lot of my own inability to call myself bi i think comes from other people not calling themselves bi and more easily calling themselves straight/lesbian depending on the time, like hearing people say 'im bi' on tv gives me this weird feeling where i want to cry and am overcome with joy and have so much confidence in being bi i love it so much representation is important i love bi girls so much.

[skrimpsapphic]

fun thing #99: blacklisting a celebrity because their face reminds you of someone you don't want to think about or see

[skrimpsapphic]

It used to be a lot easier to come out to people when I actually had like a specific label that I used and could introduce them to, and there are some people that I do really want to come out to, but I literally wouldn't know what to say other than "I'm not a hetero..."

[skrimpsapphic]

Like there's this teeeeny tiny part of me that thinks I should have just not said anything and then it wouldn't be this big thing and that it's all my fault and that's why I wanted him to apologize properly soooo bad so I would be reaffirmed that it's not all my fault from the one person who knows the story from the inside and he didn't. He just couldn't bring himself to give a full apology and take responsibility for it. And that just made it even worse.

[skrimpsapphic]

We were gonna perform at coffeehouse and I showed him three of my favorite songs for us to sing and now those three songs are fucking ruined and I'm not performing at coffeehouse thanks to this ass