I feel so overwhelmed sometimes. By media in general. There's so much to process. Sometimes I'm too lazy and worn out to fill my head with the things I love (for example literature) at the end of the day, since my mind has been filled all day for me, passively. By the constant flow of information and content, ads, opinions of others through media, news... Also, I don't seem to have the strength to work myself into new stuff. For example 90% of the modern series I start watching I drop after a season or even a few episodes (since the storytelling, the pacing or the acting feels so off).
Social media as a whole feels completely alien to me. It's fascinating to me that only on tumblr I feel some kind of safeness. The internet seems so 'loud', compared to like 10 years ago, and is filled to the brim with weird influencers, AI shit, so many voices which apparently feel the need to scream their opinions into the void while simultaniously not tolerating any other point of view. I notice myself retreating to older series, movies, bands, feel the need for quietness of tranquility in most of the pastimes I choose (reading, listening to audiobooks, knitting, having coffee with friends). I actively seek out coziness and kind of feel like my introversion seems to getting even stronger.
I find myself wishing to have lived in earlier/simpler times, not because 'haha everything was so much better back than, right', but because I just can't seem to be able to fully process today's time in a manner and tempo to properly keep up. I adore the possibilities we have nowadays, the internet as a tool to find information, to connect in a meaningful way, to find entertainment, but sometimes it feels like it kind of took a wrong turn some time ago.
