#internet psychologist

[yearofheartbreak]

Some people feel entitled to regulate others’ speech when they feel personally challenged.

I'm begging you all. Please find something better to do with your life other than worrying about someone elses. I can post my opinions and thoughts anywhere I want. You all do the same thing.

I promise that I will not let you get the last word and will continually remind you how you're just being displaced by someone's opinion being different than yours.

Don't try to argue and then resort to name calling because that's all you have left. I'll still respond, without the name calling and childlike moral superiority, and tell you that you need to find happiness instead of insulting someone on the internet to make yourself feel powerful.

[yearofheartbreak]

So many keyboard psychologists on here. It's actually entertaining besides the fact that you all literally have no sense for nuance or context and refuse to actually use those things in relation to what you're reading.

Too bad that no one will ever scare me away from speaking my mind.

Especially random ass people on the internet.

[shimishist]

I had a revelation

[note: this isn't a very positive post, sorry]

Today, while driving home from Tulsa, I realized something. 

I'm unremarkable. 

It's true. There just isn't anything about me that is impressive (except perhaps my ability to find fault with myself). I'm not really whining about this, just...it's true. I have no special talents or skills, I have no exclusive experiences or knowledge, and I'm not amazingly attractive. 

This is...discomforting because I realize now that I could have done something about this. When I was younger, I played the piano, took gymnastics, took Tai Kwon Do, played the trumpet, painted, and played soccer to name a few things. But I didn't take any of those things very far. Some I quit, others quit being available to me; but, I never got really good at any of them. And what is frustrating about that is most of my teachers in the above listed thought I had potential to be good! 

Sigh. 

So I need to do something about this. I feel unremarkable. If I were asked to list traits that distinguish  me from any ol' Joe, the only thing I would probably say is my sense of humor. Maybe. I wouldn't say it is remarkable, but I can make most people laugh (which I appreciate about myself). 

I need to do a bucket list. Or some kind of goal list. Trouble is...I can't keep myself accountable; hence my current predicament. 

But, if I did manage to work up the motivation to better myself, here are some things I would do:

Goal/Bucket List

Learn French/Italian/German/Russian.

Re-learn Piano.

Take a dance class (specifically: learn to Tango & Waltz).

Be in a play. 

Bike.

Learn to cook (like on the stove, not so much baking).

Learn how to bar tend well (like professionally). 

Build up a lil muscle mass

There. 8 things I could, would, should do. Maybe I'll get around to it. Idk.

Anyway...Long post is long.