I wish you knew how selfish and how much you've angered me in the past few weeks. You've stopped talking to me, stopped giving a shit about me...all bc YOU don't like the way I'm living MY life. I was tired of being controlled by you meme. So sick of you throwing it in my face every time I came home that you paid for my apartment and such and such. So yes..I didn't want you to pay it anymore. & you wouldn't have rather or not I moved in with AJ or not. But there's no point in paying two rents when we basically stay with each other anyways. Second, how come you get to judge me so harshly on my choices bc I chose to date someone of a different color, but God forbid anyone judge you on your choices in life. I saw you texting Vincent Como in Randy's hospital. I know Vincent Como also has a WIFE..but you still slept around with him and made secret trips to meet halfway. BUT did I ever tell anyone..no, did I ever get mad or stop talking to you or judge you, no. Or let's talk about how your seeing Gary now...your best friends husband, granted she's in a better place..I could NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS do that to Brookelyn..but do I judge you? no! Because you know why? It was YOUR choice to make, YOUR life to live. And I live by such a thing called unconditional love..you don't have to live your life to my standards to make me still look up to you and love you so very much. That's how that works meme, we're family. That's the meaning of it. Unconditional love. You can still love and talk to some people in our family that haven't made the best life choices..but you cant talk to me anymore bc I don't judge someone on the color of their skin. You can't even give me one good reason why you condone it so much! "It's not how it's suppose to be" "people look down on interracial relationships" YA cause of people like you meme..people who refuse to see people for who they really are. & lets talk about uncle Chris and Aunt Debbie for a minute. You guys don't even have the audacity to say anything to me at all. Don't even have the guts. What in the world. Just the silence treatment. Why? Because meme said that is what you are suppose to do? That's some horse shit. But you know what this has made me realize. How much I FUCKING love my mom and sister. They are the true definition of family. They didn't for one second turn their back on me. They supported me. Loved me through all the harsh words you said to me. Told me is wasn't true. Helped me through that day you made so awful for me. They know the true definition of what it means to love your family, unconditionally. I think it's really unfair I have to give up my happiness because you decided way long ago on how you wanted my life to go. Well I'm so sorry I've disappointed you and found my own way in life. I'm so sorry that I'm happily in love with an amazing guy & that kinda thing only comes once in a rare blue moon..& I don't feel like giving it up just to please you. I've done everything my entire to life to please you..& it's only landed me unhappy. Every. Single. Time. I wanted to take a break from school and figure life out..NO, unacceptable. I wanted to do things in my life so differently, but you never would allow it. And you know how freeing it is, to be able to live my life at my own pace and how I want to. It's amazing. I'm genuinely happy. & I just wish you all could be apart of it. Forgiveness is a hard thing; and I don't know how I'm going to be able to forgive you for giving up on me because I started living my life the way I wanted too. But I'll try one day. I love you all though.