My introduction has some triggering words, like talking about menstration etc, just a warning.
I made a new blog specifically for my journey into transition. Wow, tumblr's sign up has changed. Anyway. A little about myself. My name is Kris and I live in South Carolina. I am 24 years old and have been trans my whole life pretty much.
For as long as I can remember, nothing felt right for me. Which means I'd cry and complain about wearing dresses and getting my hair done up. My mother never really got to have a daughter lol. I know it's not really a good point of reference, but I was always the dad when we'd play house.
Of course for a lot of trans youth, not all obviously, puberty is a huge stab in the gut. I was 11 when my period started and it really pushed me over the edge. I didn't know what was happening to my body and I was getting breasts. My hips were getting wide. None of it was right. I'd cry about my period for weeks I hated every second of it. I was only in the 6th grade.
It was around that time when I decided to start going by Kris, I think I had decided by then that I was NOT female, I never was. I was a boy. My friends had no issues accepting it, my parents thought it was a phase. The church I was currently attending (was not. a good. church. it was a cult) deemed me to be some sort of spawn of satan because I was "tomboyish" and that's not good! I should have been feminine and girly! That just made it worse.
I do believe again at 14 I tried to come out to my parents. My mother was the only one that really helped me (bless her..) She bought me my first binder (which I still wear) and my first packer (which was way too big for me lol). I was at the time dating girls and my parents kept thinking "she's a lesbian??" and I kept fighting back "No, I'm straight." (I'm less than straight now haha)
The rest of my past aside, a lot of unacceptance and just general disdain towards me, I have a very supportive group of friends and a very supportive partner that I fell in love with almost 10 years ago. He has no problem being with a guy and I find that fascinating.
My parental type figures are just now coming to terms about me, his mother who's known me for 10 years and my father who's obviously known me for longer. She's trying to use my proper pronouns, but he's going to take more work.
Really I just want this to be a type of journal for me, to see how I personally grow and also want this to be a reference to anyone that needs help.