Pretend to hate me
And sometimes at night, I wonder if I cross your mind... Do you even miss me? Or am I being blind?
Maybe you should come back? Or maybe it's fine how it is, All I know right now, Is that I won't deal with this.
You were the closest friend I've had, My everything in one, I can't believe your gone, But I guess its far past done.
Do I ever cross your mind? And do you push me out? Do you miss me too..? Well that I surely doubt...
I see you've got a new friend, You've made that very clear.. But do you ever wonder, What id be like, if you were still right here?
I bet you think she's better, and you're convinced that you've moved on But I've learned to take care of myself, Though you'd been helping me so long
Sometimes I really hate you, I think of you too much, and even though you "hate" me too, I long to feel your touch,
Sometimes its depressing, When something reminds me of you, Like all the gifts you've made me, And yeah ..I've kept a few,
I'll look at you with hatred, If you look me in the eyes, Its only a matter of time, Before you see that its a lie,
I don't care that you hate me, Because I kind of do, I only miss the good times, The ones i shared with you.
All these mixed emotions, Are wrecking every night, Keeping me awake, Long after I hit the lights,
Some how I don't want this to be fixed. Our time is overdue, There is no room to start over, because Im done with you.
~A.N.C child-from-the-flowers~