And sometimes at night,
I wonder if I cross your mind...
Do you even miss me?
Or am I being blind?
Maybe you should come back?
Or maybe it's fine how it is,
All I know right now,
Is that I won't deal with this.
You were the closest friend I've had,
My everything in one,
I can't believe your gone,
But I guess its far past done.
Do I ever cross your mind?
And do you push me out?
Do you miss me too..?
Well that I surely doubt...
I see you've got a new friend,
You've made that very clear..
But do you ever wonder,
What id be like, if you were still right here?
I bet you think she's better,
and you're convinced that you've moved on
But I've learned to take care of myself,
Though you'd been helping me so long
Sometimes I really hate you,
I think of you too much,
and even though you "hate" me too,
I long to feel your touch,
Sometimes its depressing,
When something reminds me of you,
Like all the gifts you've made me,
And yeah ..I've kept a few,
I'll look at you with hatred,
If you look me in the eyes,
Its only a matter of time,
Before you see that its a lie,
I don't care that you hate me,
Because I kind of do,
I only miss the good times,
The ones i shared with you.
All these mixed emotions,
Are wrecking every night,
Keeping me awake,
Long after I hit the lights,
Some how I don't want this to be fixed.
Our time is overdue,
There is no room to start over,
because Im done with you.
~A.N.C child-from-the-flowers~