I mean here’s the thing, are my back issues this week a short term flare up that will settle down soon or are they an indication that there is something more serious wrong with my back that is going to require surgery. Or is it somewhere in between and I will be limited in what I can do and I won’t get to play tennis and never be able to run again and I will have to use a cane and I won’t be able to lift my grandchildren if I ever have any and I will never get to do anything fun again and I will always be dealing with some kind of soreness or pain every time I move.
I have an appointment on Monday that will help start answering these questions, but god damn it, I wish my brain would just shut the fuck up and stop spiraling through all of these variations of what might happen.
le sigh.