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All Good Things Must End

Hi all,

I hope life is treating you VERY well!

This is gonna be a surprising post to y'all but I came on here to tell (warn) you that I think I am going to stop posting here. This will be my last post. And I may actually go ahead and delete the blog. 

Now before you go off into a tizzy, let me explain.

A few minutes ago as I thought about the blog, what I wanted to share in my next post and why the blog exists, I came to the realization that it has served its purpose for me.  

I started the blog as a means to attempt to define my sexuality and to make peace with myself. Also, I wanted to get support from and encourage others out there who may be feeling the same things I was/am feeling.

Since I wrote that first post almost exactly one year ago, much has happened in my life. I've truly come to accept that I like girls. And that I like them more than guys.  Getting more specific about my sexuality is no longer so important. I am, in a word, QUEER. (Isn't it funny that it's the one word I never thought of putting in my little blog description?) I've also gone to LGBT and other queer gatherings. I've come out to other queer folk as well as a few friends and family members. I've made some peace with my religion and my sexuality. At 28 years old, I had my first relationship ever and it was with a girl. This relationship was truly satisfying and almost all that I hoped it would be. I also perhaps got to experience my very first heartbreak. No regrets though. I got the chance to be in a relationship - to care about someone and feel cared about. For that I am happy. I am happy also because all those things happened in a relatively short time span. I know many others take years to accept the way they feel, even longer to act on their feelings, and yet still longer to make any sort of peace with themselves. 

My general self-discovery journey isn't over and will never end as long as I am alive. But I no longer need the catharsis of writing for an audience. By the way, if I sound ungrateful, I do not mean to take that tone. You, my faithful followers (all couple hundred of you) and regular readers, were there for me as I poured out some of my most personal thoughts. I appreciate all of you: those of you who read, those of you who commented and those of you who sent me messages. Thank you! I hope life brings you all that you desire. May God watch over, protect and comfort you through whatever you are going through. Goodbye to you all and if I had to give you one piece of advice, it would be this: In life you must seize the day today so that you may have fewer regrets tomorrow.

Recognizing that this may be a rash decision (and Lord knows I've made more than my fair share of those) I decided to give it a few days and warn you all. I plan to delete the blog on its one-year anniversary - July 26th. Last messages, comments and similar are, of course, welcome until then :).