#isthisarant

[weliveinaflat]

Just so thankful to have someone pass me her old pump. No questions asked. When my pump died suddenly this morning. And for P who drove over to pick it up unquestioningly. And then I regretted why it takes a pump to break down to prompt you to connect with an old friend and find out the new changes in her life. In fact, most of the time I reach out to her it's when I need help with something or other. 😅 So I guess I should be thankful to this broken old pump (and its not even been a year!) I would like to say I will do better when it comes to keeping up with friends. But just keeping up with pumping, this baby's sleep regression and changing needs has been overwhelming. And knowing the flaws P and I have as adults, I am all the more keen that Little P has a good foundation where he grows up to be a more confident, positive and happy person than we are. And learning to parent takes time and effort. Nobody automatically knows how to read a dog's body language, how to train using force-free methods, etc. Nobody automatically knows how to read a baby's cues, how to respond to the baby respectfully, how to support the baby during his sensitive periods or when he is absorbed in a particular schema. What is positive discipline? So much terminology and so many different methods. And then there is weaning and transitioning to solids. Maybe its just my nature to make it more complicated than it can be. But to me, learning to parent takes time and effort. At least I am on the homestretch of this arduous pumping journey. And fingers-crossed we will all be in a better spot eventually. 😅 Or not. Because... life 🤣🤣🤣 There's never a good time. 😝😝😝 #parenting #beingaparent #isthisarant #thankful #newparent #breastfeedingjourney (at Asia/Singapore) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2ZSyvWAgD5/?igshid=12q051wphtz3x

[alohaxxdanielle]

I just wrote two new journals entries at the wake of dawn. I feel like many things has just been lifted off my shoulders. I had sooo many things i wanted to write about and at first it was hard to put them into words but by the end everything.. all the juices started flowing. I wrote about change and a mind map of my situations and not ranting about my problems but finding a solution

[35girls1princess]

Aspen and America.

So I've been out and about The Selection fandom investigating the rants, posts, and whatnot about Asperica, and let me tell you.

Most of you guys absolutely deny it.

Like, someone brings up Asperica and you guys just wave it away like it is an irrelevant subject.

And then there's the loyal Asperica shippers that are very accepting to Maxerica but still holding onto that small piece of rope called hope.

And then there's me. Confused as poop on which side to choose. I mean, I'm a leaning to Maxon's side but Aspen and America also has a story. I've been thinking about Aspen and America for about 2 weeks now, wondering Aspen's motives on why he endangered him and America by meeting in private and sending little notes and why America agrees to his 'shenanigans'.

So me being me, I broke the whole scenario down and wrote little notes on a nonexistent notepad called my brain. 

Okay, so this is my opinion on Aspericaaa...

Aspen was America's first love and America was Aspen's first love. And most of us know how our first love will forever and always leave a lasting impression on us. They make naive and not knowing our left from our right, we completely loose ourselves in the rush. (I mean, America basically forgot what sleep is because of their countless nights of meeting in that tiny tree house of theirs.) America would be practicing the violin and every single note on that music sheet would remind her of Aspen. Every single thought would be filled with Aspen. As their relationship went deeper into maturity and developed into something more secretive and serious, they had to think of the future. 

(This is where The Selection comes in)

Obviously, Aspen has been worrying about Aspen and America's future. Her stepping down a caste is a huge difference. A five is better than a six in many ways. Knowing that the one you love will have to suffer if you marry them is a horrible thought. Aspen only wanted the best for America. He loves her more than he loves himself and all he wanted for her was a better life. America is a naive girl who never thinks before she acts half of the time (It's true, you gotta admit) which makes her think that Aspen was a stupid arse for suggesting that idea. 

For Aspen, watching America fall for another lad right before his eyes was heartbreaking. He knew that he messed up big time and he most likely beat himself up for it everyday for that misunderstanding they had. So, thinking that he deserve it, he entered the draft. (uhg why is everyone in this series idiooootssss. JK KIERA CASS I LOVE YOUU BE MY SPIRIT ANIMAL) 

Anyhow, The question that has been running through my head is WHY WOULD ASPEN TAKE A RISK OF MEETING AMERICA IN SECRET KNOWING THAT IF THEY'RE CAUGHT, IT COULD COST THEM THEIR HEADS. and why AMERICA AGREES TO THIS. 

But, I know, I know. Blah blah Aspen loves America and he just wanted to see her and yada yada yada. But seriously, everyone is naive. Except for Celeste. But no one likes her... cuz she's a bit-mean person. yeah. 

But seriosuly, Aspen gave America a boatload of pennies to repay her for singing to him and America overlooks on how hard it is to find a dang penny to give to her every single night. I mean, those pennies could buy so much food for Aspen's family and America barely gives a second thought about that part of it. 

Sooo... yeah... That was my opinion.. What's yours?

[wastdtears]

I'm honestly so fricking proud of myself. you use to have this hold or power over me and now, now you don't. This feelng is so fucking liberating I want to run through a grass field with my head back laughing holding the americsn flag and i dont know why but, that sounds great. You did so many fucking indiscretly shitty things, we hooked up once, get over it I'm not in love with you darling, Don't fucking tell people we're not hooking up again because you don't want to leade me on. I never told you, I msy have showed it but it was a little flare and I was over it. You want to start this game of saying and going shiity things well babe, I hate to break it to you. But, you're not even in the game anymore, you've been fucking destroyed and I'm not fucking stopping so I hope you take some time yo re-evalute you're life descisions, asshole.