#it got deep

[koscheyyy]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

So, I heard that it was the anniversary of Stephen’s car crash and I thought some angst was the best way to process that information.

[ssambles]

For traits: - Blue-grey eyes -freckles -glasses -long reddish hair -I have no confidence don't talk enough and have been abandoned a ton??

They had glorious blue eyes; the type that constantly glowed in the sun’s bright light, the color contrasting with their hair that could have been mistaken for a welcoming fire. What added to the wonderful look were the freckles that danced upon their face and the glasses that magnified their luxurious eyes. Sadly, they did not look at themselves the way others looked at them. They did not see their beautiful features that one could only wish to have.

Hopefully, that would change soon enough.

[madameraccoon]

🕯️✨ please 😊

✨What's a fic you've posted you wish you could breathe life into again and have people talking about it? (or simply a fic you wish got more credit)

I have a special place in my heart for two works:

1) Falling Hard. It was such a journey, born out of spite (surprise!) and dissatisfaction, turned into a whole Canon Divergence AU turned into a Poly Modern AU. I wish I could write a bit more about all of them, about the individual journeys of the background characters. About Suri, Mor, about Rhys's sister and their relationship, but I always stop because I have a big fear of ruining something that is beautiful on its own.

Also, I discovered how much I love Rhycien while writing this. I love my babies.

2) Walk of Victory. Soft genderbent Gwynriel makes me happy. The joy Gwyn feels while accepting himself gave me confidence and comfort. I didn't know at the time, when writing it, that I was basically writing a hug to myself and to all the people who struggled in accepting themselves. I wish I could work on that more, but it was too much and I think I am not ready yet.

Sorry, the answers ended up being heavier than I expected ahahah

🕯️was there a fic that was really hard on you to write, or took you to a place you didn't think it would take you?

Well, again Walk of Victory did a number on me, in addition (surprise again!) "Go to the club" also took me to places I never thought I would end up in.

It forced me to look out from my little box of self-imposed shame and made me face a couple of things that still, to this day, make me uncomfortable. I think they always will, but I can live with discomfort better than fear. It's becoming increasingly easier to write but I really need to be in the right mindset.

[seizeddesire]

i hate playing my music in public or on speaker because people around me always ask me 'dont u ever get sick of hearing to the same music' bcos no. i dont. i never get sick of the things i love. im always loving to its extent. the one staying. the one lingering. the one remembering.

[rapmonkive]

hiii how are you today?? how are you doing since hobis gone :(

To be honest, not great.

It's really hard. It's hard losing each of your closest friends, your brothers, just one by one. That I won't get to see Hobi for at least a year and a half-longer after I go in. That I won't get to call him up to go out to dinner or concerts. That the studio next to mine is going to be empty. That I can't just call him up to hear his voice. i won't be able to do any of that.

And while I know he wont' be gone forever, it's still a really long time. We've all been together nearly 24/7 for over a decade, and I've never spent my adult life without these guys always within arm's reach of me. It's a lot to handle, and the loss is immense.

And then I hope he comes out as the same Hobi. I know that the service can change people, and not always for the better. I know that it is difficult for many, and that It's hard physically but also mentally and emotionally. I worry about Hobi because behind that sunshine there's a lot of buried sadness.

It was hard when Jin went in, but at that time we didn't know yet what that pain felt like. We didn't know yet how much we'd miss him or how long the days were. We can now see him once in awhile, which is great, but it's never for long and it's never reliable. It's always hard saying goodbye again when you don't know when the next time you see them will be. Now that I know what that pain is like, it's harder with with member that goes in.

And when I go, I'll be alone, and I won't have the rest of the members any longer. It'll be a long, long year and a half.

[silenthilllz]

I think I’d like to just stick with loving fictional characters and not date anymore

I’m ok with not having anyone, I mean it’ll get lonely but I severely am too attached to some characters and I don’t believe I’ll find anyone out there that’ll change my mind

Yeah so, I’m just gonna stick in my fanfic because it’s the only happiness I have right now

[imagination-of-a-melted-bitch]

I’m scared to get into a relationship with someone anymore because some of the relationships I’ve been in it felt like they just wanted me to pass the time or when they gave me attention I felt like they were being clingy because I never grew up in a home where my parents were lovey dovey or anything just a kiss every now and then and because I feel like they’re being clingy I don’t give love like how they might and they felt like I was always pulling away I hope that makes sense

I grew up in a household where love was shown everywhere, it wasn’t hidden and I didn’t mind it, as long as my mom is happy. I was sexually assaulted by my stepdad and he claimed he was ‘in’ love with me and ‘in’ love with my mom and that he only did this because he needed to cum and ugh! It just ruined the concept of sex and love for me, that’s why I write because I’m in control and I pull the strings.

[sapphopadme]

they can reboot narnia all they like. liam neeson’s voice was aslan personified. every line gave me chills. when i saw the lion the witch and the wardrobe in cinema as a child i was obsessed. i was obsessed anyway the narnia books were the first books i ever read by myself without being help. but when the film came out in 2005 it was so perfect. and hopefully whenever they do get round to the silver chair i hope at the very least liam is aslan again because i can never imagine someone else being and representing what aslan is